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I hope we can give it a go again. I've thought this from day one but I've been too afraid to say anything or to admit it to myself. I am terrified of getting hurt again but I feel like love is worth the risk, I mean it is tattooed on my ribcage so I have to live by it. Let's do this, lets try to make it work again and when I say try, we actually have to TRY. Both of us, not just me. Because we could be so amazing together, even if it doesn't last a lifetime. I am not looking for forever, I want right here right now.

So when you get back from stupid Canada tell me you want the same. I know you do, I can see it in the way you look at me when you think I'm not paying attention. I can feel it in the way you brush the hair out of my face when I am laying in bed with you all tangled together. I know you've fucked me over before, I haven't forgotten. But I've forgiven and I'm going to be much more careful. It isn't blind faith in you this time. I like you, and I wish that you were a member so you could read this. I don't think I'll ever get up the guts to tell you all of this in person.

Here's to putting myself out there for heartbreak again, please make it worth it.

xoxo