cc_baxter

i just watched "Showgirls" for the third time and i think it gets funnier with repeated veiwing (and the scotch doesn't hurt).

cheers!

something witty, clever and charming...

it's funny how i've deluded myself to think that keeping some kind of online journal would possibly be able to shed any sort of light, or provide any sort of relief. even this if i were to analyze it is just some strange exclamation of

"here i am god damn it, and i'm not
happy!"

greiving is a very long and unsettling process best left...
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"universal concerns are idiocy. ask nothing better than to prosper in the belly of the leviathan and set a hedonistic example to the community."

saul bellow - Herzog


this is not something i actually subscribe to but it's becoming more and more attractive. it seems like i keep setting up moralistic road blocks that life increasingly difficult in a capitalistic society.

. The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock - T.S. Elliot


Sio credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, siodo il vero,
Senza tema dinfamia ti rispondo.


LET us go then, you and I,
When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like...
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last night some friends and i went to see an associate spin lounge and exotica at some place called the congo room i believe. nice enough place, though the bartender couldn't make a proper mojito to save his life. very small room and to make matters worse the crowded the room up with wall to wall tables. when will the east bay ever learn you...
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True Love Is Not Nice
jonathan richman

Well, it hurts from the bottom
and it hurts down to your soul
that's because true love is not nice.
And it brings up hurt from when
you were five years old
that's because true love is nice.

Oh, pain, pain, pain,
ain't that just love's name,
love can bring up hurt
from way down low.
It now...
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and then the clouds parted and the hand of god was
reaching down from the sky with an offering for ME!
"it's called vacation boy and you had better take
it now 'cause yo' company may belly up
before ya get back."

so naturally i have. yeah to sweet personal freedom.
hip hip hooray!

eeewwwww... what to do with all this new found
personal glory?

i'm a loser
and i've lost someone who's dear to me
i'm a loser
and i'm not what i appear to be.

of the loves i have won, and have lost
there is one love i should never have crossed
she was a girl in a million my friend
i should have known she would win in the end

repeat chorus arg!

no, not some...
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one if by land
two if by sea
three if the french kicks are coming

THREE!!!

the french kicks are coming...
the french kicks are coming...

why does goeing and giving my not so hard earned
money to people i probably wouldn't think so
very much of if i knew them personally make
me so very happy?
and why do i repeatedly read my horoscope...
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