cc_baxter

you know it's really not going to work.
this putting on a happy face and trying to go about my business like nothings bothering me.
tonight i tried to reintroduce myself to my social circle and do the sort of thing that would ordinarily make me
very happy. that is have a few drinks with friends and listen and dance to a great band. instead i felt like
an alien and had to escape after an hour. where is this
happy medium where i don't feel like i'm indulging myself in negativity and where i'm not putting myself
in situations where i feel out of sorts?
just felt like complaining i guess.