ok. so as of my last post my boy wasnt answering his phone. but it turns out it was on silent. I went away with him.
everything went well sort of......well sort of.....it started out well....I was so nervous......and he was like..."you're beautiful and great, i heart you"
and the first night was amazing......but the second day started to get akward......and it turns out he started to get scared.....about how we are on the phone together...all sweet and serious and accidently calling eachother "gf/bf" and he kkept saying he was "falling" for me...it was all happening too fast for us...and he started to show it more than me since he did most of the saying of it than me....and he started to pull away....but then he would do things like.... drive and put on songs like "animal" or rockstar by nickleback and grab me and kiss me and pantimime to it all the parts that remind him of me....like "playboy bunnies witg belach blonde hair"
which was so cute
we were at a stopo light and i started kissing him and the couple (older) in the car next to us started cheering us on...it was so hot...so the whole wknd was constant confusion of h9im being really into me and him pulling away from me. so now im more confused than when i left.
WHY ARE BOYS LIKE THAT?!!
I know he likes me. But i know neither of us is ready for a long distance relationship
but wtf???
then there was drama which a bitch who was SO GREEN with jealous that hhe was with me she started some gossip shit...it was bad.....i dunno.....then he was like...not being up front about being scared so i called him on it...and he admitted it.....and li,e his best friend told me he would talk to him about not screwing up this thing we have......about taking it one day at a time......
and like......we had the best sex ever!!! and like i asked if when i got home we would go back to our phone calls and shit or would it end? and he said we would def go back to the way we were and see wot happens one day at a time....but then he would say things a few hours later that made me feel like maybe not??
he's not sure wot he wants. he's def scared. but so am i?? he told me to call when i got home but he's not answering again. he never used to not answer. WTF???
i cried the whole way home coz im so sad and confused. we both agreed we needed to see eachother tho or else we woulda had to end it. so this had to happen but why like this??
i know he likes me. i just hope he wants to take it slow and i just want to talk to him every day liek we were. one day at a time coz he kept sayiing he might move here. and he could b with me. but then he'd b like. we need to talk when u get home. but then he'd b like, one day at a time coz u gotta take chances...SO WHICH IS IT???
AGHHHH!!!!!
i hate boys.
i heart him tho
fuck
why did i get attached to a boy in another state??
xox
everything went well sort of......well sort of.....it started out well....I was so nervous......and he was like..."you're beautiful and great, i heart you"
and the first night was amazing......but the second day started to get akward......and it turns out he started to get scared.....about how we are on the phone together...all sweet and serious and accidently calling eachother "gf/bf" and he kkept saying he was "falling" for me...it was all happening too fast for us...and he started to show it more than me since he did most of the saying of it than me....and he started to pull away....but then he would do things like.... drive and put on songs like "animal" or rockstar by nickleback and grab me and kiss me and pantimime to it all the parts that remind him of me....like "playboy bunnies witg belach blonde hair"
which was so cute
we were at a stopo light and i started kissing him and the couple (older) in the car next to us started cheering us on...it was so hot...so the whole wknd was constant confusion of h9im being really into me and him pulling away from me. so now im more confused than when i left.
WHY ARE BOYS LIKE THAT?!!
I know he likes me. But i know neither of us is ready for a long distance relationship
but wtf???
then there was drama which a bitch who was SO GREEN with jealous that hhe was with me she started some gossip shit...it was bad.....i dunno.....then he was like...not being up front about being scared so i called him on it...and he admitted it.....and li,e his best friend told me he would talk to him about not screwing up this thing we have......about taking it one day at a time......
and like......we had the best sex ever!!! and like i asked if when i got home we would go back to our phone calls and shit or would it end? and he said we would def go back to the way we were and see wot happens one day at a time....but then he would say things a few hours later that made me feel like maybe not??
he's not sure wot he wants. he's def scared. but so am i?? he told me to call when i got home but he's not answering again. he never used to not answer. WTF???
i cried the whole way home coz im so sad and confused. we both agreed we needed to see eachother tho or else we woulda had to end it. so this had to happen but why like this??
i know he likes me. i just hope he wants to take it slow and i just want to talk to him every day liek we were. one day at a time coz he kept sayiing he might move here. and he could b with me. but then he'd b like. we need to talk when u get home. but then he'd b like, one day at a time coz u gotta take chances...SO WHICH IS IT???
AGHHHH!!!!!
i hate boys.
i heart him tho
fuck
why did i get attached to a boy in another state??
xox