Ok Ok, so its been a while. Stupid journal with feelings..... So yeah this week sucks. I'm getting kicked out of my dorm because the school doesn't want to pay the utlities? I would rant and rave and debate that but thats pretty self explanatory. Kind of like shooting a person when they're already dead. Speaking of dead, I'm so damn depressed. Not because I am depressed. But I had like 12 people online and in real life ask if I'm suicidal? I wasn't suicidal before but after they kept asking me, I gotta admit a razor is looking kinda friendly. But I wouldn't cut myself, I'm too much of a pussy to do that. But If I did have a choice on how to take my own life, I'd do the diamond suicide. That's the coolest way to go. And its probably this shit that makes people think I'm suicidal. Is it so wrong to think about how you would kill yourself if you really wanted to? Is our society so damn taboo that death is on restriction? I don't know, maybe I'm letting people get to me. Scorpios are not made to be fucked with and people keep coming at me. I don't know If I'd kill myself but I definitely wouldn't have a problem taking out a few people right now. But I can't because then I'd go to jail and probably get executed by lethal injection. And thats not a cool way to go. I wonder if you could request an execution? They'd probably think you're so damn crazy you deserve to go to psyche. Of maybe they would put you on suicide watch on death row? That would be classic government right there. But hey, they sterilize your arm for a lethal injection to prevent infection. 