cayce

i had some family time last night, with t's family. i honestly think of them as my family too. his aunt and uncle and cousins were around, and they're super cool. i don't know any people who are more accepting. the first time i met them, they made me feel welcome, and right away i felt like i was part of the family. i don't think he can say the same for my family. they love him now, after four years, but it took them a looooooooong time to warm up to him.

anywho, we had a super fun time last night. we played some poker, and i actually won. i was so excited, at thanksgiving i was first out when we played.

i feel a real sense of contentment right now. i'm hesitant to write it out, because i know it never lasts. but i feel it all the same, and when i feel like this it's so good. it's like when i wake up, and t's on one side of me and the kitty is on the other. i just feel surrounded by love.

i haven't broke the news to my mom that we're probably moving. i have to take it slow with her. i told her for months that t and i were moving in together, but they still freaked when we did. so i'm telling her piece by piece. i think it helps that we're for sure not going until next february. that gives me almost a year to get her used to the idea. i think she suspects though, because she called my brother and asked him what i told himabout it.

my grandpa was trying to figure out why it's taking me so long to finish school once. he asked what motivated me, whether money or success or whatever. and the thing of it is, i'm content. i don't feel a huge drive pushing me forward. i feel like i have everything i need. i'm safe, i eat, i have the person i love the most with me. what more do i need? so, i guess if you made it through this whole thing i have a question. what motivates you?