catthepirate

dealing with angry people sucks
i dont know how to deal with matt when he is angry. i'm the angry one here, not him. our apartment is a disaster and neither of us are happy , i cleaned the entire apartment last time and iv done the majority of dishes and litter box duties and the last two loads of laundry
so it only seems fair that he cleans
and i dont mean that in a 'he never does his half' kinda way, im just saying im tired and i'd like to take a day off
but when i do i feel so fucking guilty
it always goes until the apartment is a disaster, the kitties are going crazy and we're both tired. AH!
i just hate him getting angry at shit like the mop breaking, and a bunch of other shit becuase i can't do anything about it. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate this.
everyday i feel like i have the weight of 1000 elephants on my shoulder. i cant help everyone or save anyone and i cant deal with that
i feel like if i dont pamper everyone and do all the work than i'm not doing anything.
fuck you anxiety disorder
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