wow a lot to say , lets see how well i paraphrase.
sooo wanted this creepy guy, who was super hot, now he is moving away and dropped out. but things with my best guy friend, matt, have escalated.
matt, oh matt, things with matt have always had a sexual tension element to them. and we would joke about it. he is basically my twin. i love that kid. we like the same music, movies, etc. same sense of humor. we joke about cuddling and getting it on. at the retreat for orientation leaders this past weekend things escalated into holding hands and snuggling. now we snuggle, hold hands, cuddle to our hearts content. and i know we both have a growing fondness for each toher.
we have yet to kiss. but i want it to be that way sometimes, i like the innocence of our given relationship. so when we finally do kiss i want it to be glorious. i dont want a big buildup and then be disapponted cause no matter what happens it will be a good one. just becuase its so much like built up tension released. we have had the opportunity more than a few times but we havent.
for once in my life i have the feeling that this may go somewehre. i know its premature but seriously, i think i've found the guy im going to marry. i've said that before jokingly becuase the person was so hot. at first i wasnt attracted to him, but i adore him to infinity. we are getting married when we are 40 and still single regardless, haha. but yeah, definatly i think i could spend forever with him.
and that is scary. i dont get that nervous gut feeling thinking about him or when i'm with him. i am so comfortable with him. i can fart in front of him and we laugh and he has seen me at my most ugly and he doesnt care.
i fell asleep in his arms and its the greatest comfort feeling.
i guess the things to take slow are the things you want to treasure the most in life. take it slow and enjoy it.
sooo wanted this creepy guy, who was super hot, now he is moving away and dropped out. but things with my best guy friend, matt, have escalated.
matt, oh matt, things with matt have always had a sexual tension element to them. and we would joke about it. he is basically my twin. i love that kid. we like the same music, movies, etc. same sense of humor. we joke about cuddling and getting it on. at the retreat for orientation leaders this past weekend things escalated into holding hands and snuggling. now we snuggle, hold hands, cuddle to our hearts content. and i know we both have a growing fondness for each toher.
we have yet to kiss. but i want it to be that way sometimes, i like the innocence of our given relationship. so when we finally do kiss i want it to be glorious. i dont want a big buildup and then be disapponted cause no matter what happens it will be a good one. just becuase its so much like built up tension released. we have had the opportunity more than a few times but we havent.
for once in my life i have the feeling that this may go somewehre. i know its premature but seriously, i think i've found the guy im going to marry. i've said that before jokingly becuase the person was so hot. at first i wasnt attracted to him, but i adore him to infinity. we are getting married when we are 40 and still single regardless, haha. but yeah, definatly i think i could spend forever with him.
and that is scary. i dont get that nervous gut feeling thinking about him or when i'm with him. i am so comfortable with him. i can fart in front of him and we laugh and he has seen me at my most ugly and he doesnt care.
i fell asleep in his arms and its the greatest comfort feeling.
i guess the things to take slow are the things you want to treasure the most in life. take it slow and enjoy it.
just think: you and jesus getting marrried...
FINALLY. a nice boy. PERFECT. WONDERFUL. LOVELY.