catthepirate

matt left a little bit ago to drive down to meet his sister so they can drive to brookings for thanksgiving. this fucking sucks. i miss him so much and it hasnt even been half an hour.
i feel a lot better
but now my nausea and sickness is replaced with a hole in my gut that left less than half an hour ago
tonight is going to be the first night we have slept apart since a while before we were even dating
usually when people miss their boyfriends they call their best friend
well my best friend is in the same place matt is because he is my best friend.
when we went to brookings he slept in his old room and i slept in the living room, thats the furthest we've slept apart
im not looking forward to tonight
the bed is going to feel larger than it has ever felt before
and im going to feel more alone than i have felt in a very long time
and i can't stop crying