it's friday morning. 7:52 to be exact. Oliver is still sleeping and i'm one of the first on the east coast to update my journal today. 
so the winter tires are now on my little car and i'll be all safe when the big bad snow falls upon us. the xmas lights are up on my balcony (yeah already) so that's done. the apartment is...
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so the winter tires are now on my little car and i'll be all safe when the big bad snow falls upon us. the xmas lights are up on my balcony (yeah already) so that's done. the apartment is...
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happy thursday. i drank a bottle of red wine last night and fell asleep on a bed that was spining out of control. it's been a while since I stuck my head into the toilet and regreted the last three glasses, only to sleep for a few minutes on the bathroom carpet.
yeah, last night was a braid of stupidity, frustration and unabashed fun. both...
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yeah, last night was a braid of stupidity, frustration and unabashed fun. both...
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sixothree:
je parle francais depuis approximent (is that a word?) six ans, mais pas encore. (not anymore) i've forgotten a lot since may... but it's good stuff. i was almost fluent, but wasn't feelin' it anymore...
faye:
I just have to say that I love the new display pic, it's totally cute! 
it's 15:52
im angry at work.
im depressed at work.
feeding myself massively loud doses of metallica and a perfect circle.
i feel...like:
3 Libras
threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to...
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im angry at work.
im depressed at work.
feeding myself massively loud doses of metallica and a perfect circle.
i feel...like:
3 Libras
threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to...
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garion333:
A groan of tedium escapes me,
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.
But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here.
Wait it out,
Gonna wait it out,
Be patient (wait it out).
If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.
If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may ... (sigh) ... I still may.
Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself of this.
-You should know who, if not, blah!
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.
But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here.
Wait it out,
Gonna wait it out,
Be patient (wait it out).
If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.
If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may ... (sigh) ... I still may.
Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself of this.
-You should know who, if not, blah!
echodyne:
APC and Metallica in large Loud doses are always a sure thing.
it's wednesday. meh.
well the day ended pretty much how the American election is headed...down the potty. i came home talked to my neighbour next door (the guy) i had supper, fed Olie, then the neighbour came over, we played with Olie, then we smoked. we talked, he left, i put Olie to bed (which was an adventure as I was quite out of it...
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well the day ended pretty much how the American election is headed...down the potty. i came home talked to my neighbour next door (the guy) i had supper, fed Olie, then the neighbour came over, we played with Olie, then we smoked. we talked, he left, i put Olie to bed (which was an adventure as I was quite out of it...
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virgins_prayer:
ok so tell me a little more about your city if I win the lottery tonight I am moving to Canada... 
robotsatemyhair:
Cathedra, you're so lovely... thank you!
if you look outside or on your calendar it appears to be a day like any other. but unbeknownst to many it is a very very special day for me. i weighed myself this morning and for the first time in easily 10 plus years i'm under 200lbs. 
it's both strange and wonderful. as of this morning i'm 198.5 and 5'8". sure still sounds BIG...
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it's both strange and wonderful. as of this morning i'm 198.5 and 5'8". sure still sounds BIG... Read More
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delores:
i voted for kerry today, but it would seem that it didn't matter all that much. 
...it's not over yet, but i feel the doom hanging in the air.
on a better note, some more congrats to you!! i think you're hot as is, but it helps so much when you feel accomplished and all that crap....bleh bleh bleh.
...it's not over yet, but i feel the doom hanging in the air.
on a better note, some more congrats to you!! i think you're hot as is, but it helps so much when you feel accomplished and all that crap....bleh bleh bleh.
ella_1:
we weigh the same!!! yay for us! But I am an inch taller so ner!
Feels good to be under 200lbs
Feels good to be under 200lbs
welcome to november. i feel like i can breath again. october was such a chaotic month filled with sex, parties, being sick, and work work work. november is a time to slow the fuck down, clean up, prep my world for winter and finally work on the projects i've been putting off. i've already put up my winter lights on the front balcony, i'll try...
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delores:
i hear ya on the 2005 thing. i feel so freakin' old.
happy belated halloween! i got a deathmetal boy's phone number . a deathmetal boy who also likes old country and rockabilly.
i hate when the good boys are far away
i wish i had the energy to do some cleaning and work on projects. it's not like i'm working a whole lot...
have a lovely week!
happy belated halloween! i got a deathmetal boy's phone number . a deathmetal boy who also likes old country and rockabilly.
i hate when the good boys are far away
i wish i had the energy to do some cleaning and work on projects. it's not like i'm working a whole lot...
have a lovely week!
sinope:
I know I know.....come visit England
Halloween is tomorrow, but last night I went to our company's fetish halloween party in our Pornstar Academie loft. We had a nasty good time, and I survived walking around in 6" heels and being bound up in an uber tight corset.
You can't see it too well in the pics but I was 6'1" with the shoes and had a long black wig down...
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You can't see it too well in the pics but I was 6'1" with the shoes and had a long black wig down...
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ella_1:
Where did you get that corset? I have been hunting down one just like that!!
schism13:
Anytime babe
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ginacherry:
What a sweet pic!! very cool. I wanna go to your party!!!!
very cool. I wanna go to your party!!!!
navydclown:
you make me wish i lived in canada 
life is full of mysteries.
can you tell me how to get to Sesame Street? hmm it's a mystery. it's also a mystery how I lost another half lb. yesterday by doing *nothing* out of the ordinary. even to the point where I had 2 huge ass hamburgers (home made and healthy of course) but still..not been working out (cept cleaning) and def not paying...
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can you tell me how to get to Sesame Street? hmm it's a mystery. it's also a mystery how I lost another half lb. yesterday by doing *nothing* out of the ordinary. even to the point where I had 2 huge ass hamburgers (home made and healthy of course) but still..not been working out (cept cleaning) and def not paying...
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nocontrol:
Well, thank you very much. Awfully nice of you to say. I'm still not as "not bad" as you, though. 
Ooh, I wanna go to the party. Too bad I'm not near Montreal. I'll have to make a trip up there one of these days. I keep threatening to do it, anyway.
Ooh, I wanna go to the party. Too bad I'm not near Montreal. I'll have to make a trip up there one of these days. I keep threatening to do it, anyway.
sixothree:
you cracked the code, you cracked the code! haha yay
congrats on losing more weight. i guess sometimes when you don't try, it's when you get what you want.
congrats on losing more weight. i guess sometimes when you don't try, it's when you get what you want.
tuesday. I almost got caught in a radar trap this morning. I crawled by the officer holding the rader gun pointed at my face, in a cold sweat. 120km in a 50km zone? that would of HURT.
new pic in profile. well not really it was taken about a month ago already while at work. but since photoshop has stopped working for me at home...
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new pic in profile. well not really it was taken about a month ago already while at work. but since photoshop has stopped working for me at home...
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recordandplay:
thanks 
sinope:
*hugs* congrats sweetness!
Sounds like you need a little cheering up. you do have the right idea though. Ive tried long distance too. its hard. lets have coffe or a drink sometime lady.