it's friday morning. 7:52 to be exact. Oliver is still sleeping and i'm one of the first on the east coast to update my journal today. 
so the winter tires are now on my little car and i'll be all safe when the big bad snow falls upon us. the xmas lights are up on my balcony (yeah already) so that's done. the apartment is an ungodly mess but bah, it's friday i'll have 2 days to clean it up.
my cousin left an almost desperate message on my machine last night asking if i could babysit her daughter on saturday. i guess i'll do it if she can stay here, i hate falling asleep on their couch watching french tv stations.
Schism13 is leaving for Alberta on monday. i'm obviously not happy about this, but i'm dealing. what I don't get is why he's not talking to me, and putting odd messages in his journal. I can't stay attached to someone that is going so far away for so long. I just can't do that to myself because it's not fair. I've lived through LD in the past and have learnt my lesson. I think in life you get to taste a variety of good and bad experiences. What makes you wise, is learning when the bad ones are bad and not repeating them. It's hard to be in the light and be close to someone and then take a step back and be normal status as everyone else around you, and watch that person flirt and chat with others as if you weren't there. That's the part i'm not dealing with well, maybe it's just me.
In any case my main point that I wanted to write in here today was that I really and trully do love and appreciate you all: my SG friends. In my journals, in the PSW group *special hearty kisses for u guys*, on msn, via email, you are all the freaking sunshine I need. I just wanted to say thanks to you all for being who you are, I just wish we could all be closer or that the price of air travel wouldn't be so harsh.
have a great friday
so the winter tires are now on my little car and i'll be all safe when the big bad snow falls upon us. the xmas lights are up on my balcony (yeah already) so that's done. the apartment is an ungodly mess but bah, it's friday i'll have 2 days to clean it up.
my cousin left an almost desperate message on my machine last night asking if i could babysit her daughter on saturday. i guess i'll do it if she can stay here, i hate falling asleep on their couch watching french tv stations.
Schism13 is leaving for Alberta on monday. i'm obviously not happy about this, but i'm dealing. what I don't get is why he's not talking to me, and putting odd messages in his journal. I can't stay attached to someone that is going so far away for so long. I just can't do that to myself because it's not fair. I've lived through LD in the past and have learnt my lesson. I think in life you get to taste a variety of good and bad experiences. What makes you wise, is learning when the bad ones are bad and not repeating them. It's hard to be in the light and be close to someone and then take a step back and be normal status as everyone else around you, and watch that person flirt and chat with others as if you weren't there. That's the part i'm not dealing with well, maybe it's just me.
In any case my main point that I wanted to write in here today was that I really and trully do love and appreciate you all: my SG friends. In my journals, in the PSW group *special hearty kisses for u guys*, on msn, via email, you are all the freaking sunshine I need. I just wanted to say thanks to you all for being who you are, I just wish we could all be closer or that the price of air travel wouldn't be so harsh.
have a great friday
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Sounds like you need a little cheering up. you do have the right idea though. Ive tried long distance too. its hard. lets have coffe or a drink sometime lady.