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So, went to a party last night. The redhead was there but she didn't stay long. The girl she was with was the roommate of someone I sort of knew Freshman year (as in they were roommates freshman year) and we were trying to figure out how we knew each other... Redhead was dressed as a hooker and I didn't recognize her at first with all the eye make-up. She's much cuter without it...
I spent most of the night just moping aorund and was finally like "fuck-it" and left. I don't know why I was so miserable. I just hate it when that happens. I go to be socialable and have a good time and then I'm fucking miserable. Maybe I should've invited myself to Carlotta St with April and her friend...
Had some weird dreams. I was just remembering them and thinking of writing them down and now I can't remember!
Oh! Graduations. And John. Lots of weird stuff. I dreampt I did a lot of drugs and I didn't really know what happened. And then I was talking to John, trying to reconcile things with him, fuck, I think I wanted to get together with him--eek! Then I was graduating and my sister was graduating on the same day. We lived somewhere weird. We didn't have much time and we had some invitation to someone's graduation and we didn't know who it was and we went... and it was like one girl who we didn't really know. And my mom was supposed to direct the band... what the fuck? She doesn't know anything about music. I think we were moving or had moved or something. I don't remember. I just remember trying to talk to John and him not really wanting to talk to me. And my dad needing somewhere to go running. It's was in the country and very hilly. Weird.
I was so dizzy when I got home last night. It was weird.
I need to do laundry. I need to wash dishes. I need to do lots of things. Ugh.
And I don't feel like wearing my Keeper because my period is really light right now but I don't have anything else to use. I wish I had a panty liner or SOMETHING. Ugh.