catculus

fucking sexual frustration.

went to the spectrum party. it was alright.

remember the cute redhead from the sappho supper a couple weeks ago? she was there. we talked a little. she gave me cigarettes. I tried to get her to stay at the party, said I'd bring her home, but no, she went with her ride. dammit, dammit, dammit.

aurgh. I think I may play with my vibrator. I want an actual person though, goddamnit! shit, shit, shit, shit, shit.

Ryan should be online. Don't think he'd be all for my inviting myself over though. and it's likely that I would try it. (Have had a little to drink, not THAT much though)

ok. I think that's it.