catculus

I wish she'd call. I don't know how the 14-page letter I sent her last week affected her. I hope it didn't seem too crazy--I'm sure I failed to mention that I am an avid letter writer. Not that the letters I usually write are that long, but I had a lot to say to her. It was probably the most open and honest thing I've ever written. Not that I generally lie, I have no reason to lie, I just don't usually tell people exactly how I feel about them or situations involving them. I usually imply more and say less. There was one part I left out though, one part that may have been important and may have left her less reluctant to talk to me. It's the part I want to deny though. I don't want to tell her I don't think we are at all appropriate for each other because if she ever were to start talking to me again, I probably would date her. If she can get over whatever this problem with herself is.

I am mostly over it. I've just been kinda lonely the last couple of days and I don't have many people to call and I wish I could call her but I know it's completely pointless. I hate that. I need to meet new people but I'm rather convinced that everyone in this area is the same.

On a positive note, I went and played Ultimate tonight for the first time in a month and a half. Amazingly enough, I wasn't incredibly worn out afterwards. Hopefully I'll be able to get out there Thursday.