Monday Dec 05, 2011

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first day on my own haven't done anything. washed some laundry but really just feel like i want to sleep, not sure why. sad i guess. maybe.
i'm here for another week, we'll see how it goes.
spent a lot of money - had a lot of expectations, somethings don't go the way you want them to, but it's life right??
i need to look inside myself for the strength and make my own mind up about what is right.
although everyone's been awesome about giving advice and stuff.
i can't continue to feel like crap inside, or hate my body - i've never loved it but i've surely never hated it.
anyhow, we'll see what we shall see.
happy monday all,
Cass
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fiendish:
added you in LOL
necia:
Hey--no worries. Life is complicated sometimes, and sometimes it's really hard to see our own motivations for doing what we do, and I've definitely been involved in interactions I really shouldn't have been involved in because of that (or interactions I just knew better than to be involved in and did so anyway). But honestly, if nothing else--I don't know. Call me demanding, but someone who gets me to fly out to another country to visit and then hints about making out, maybe, in the future would find me sleeping on the couch with my laptop and my favorite buzzy toy until I left for the airport for my flight home. That's just--something's up with that, and it has nothing to do with you. At the risk of sounding judgmental, that's just abnormal, frankly, and to me indicates issues on his part.

Now, all that aside: you should take the time while you're there to explore, because I've actually never been to Canada and there's really no good reason for that and I've always wanted to go. You shelled out for an international flight, you should see some sights and do some things and, like, eat poutine and stuff. wink

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