cassy

boys seriously confuse me. i swear my ex has it all wrong sometimes, well most of the time, tells me i don't support his work, his family, and b/c i think that he works too much and might "end up like his dad" that i'm being fuckin disrespectful. i swear all i've ever done was support him. i mean, if he's an astronaut it doesn't really affect me, we're broken up, i just hate how i'm like a bad friend now. also according to him, i tell everyone everything, and some things are private. ugh. well then JUST TELL ME. i'm so annoyed with him today i can't even tell u. also, this girl he's talking to in Sweden makes me crazy. i don't want to care, so bad, but i do.
i just try to not act jealous, but tbh, it's not really working, nobody is fucking convinced, especially not me.

i stayed home from work today b/c i had a stomach ache, and didn't feel like touring factories. my eyes hurt b/c they were tearing up earlier from dealing with my ex. i want my baby to wake up so we can play video games and we can take my mind off of mundane stupidity.

do you guys think i should keep talking to Josh? i feel like, we have such an amazing friendship, but i even made a comment to him that maybe he should talk to HER during the time he used to talk to me and he was like "maybe i do"...wtf.
ugh.
then on Sunday i blew Josh off b/c my boy was around and that's my priority sorry. how does he like it? writes me a giant email about how he doesn't.

he says he doesn't want drama, but i feel like he's fueling it.

i feel like i need to drink coffee, shop online, and play League of Legends.

What are you guys upto?

xoxo,
Cass