so last night i had such a shitty night in game....everything i did turned to dust. and it happens sometimes...and i know he knows how it feels b/c he's ultra competitive, i mean, i never thought i'd meet someone more competitive than me.
but
i love that he holds himself to a certain standard - although sometimes i think he puts too much emphasis on it, it's ok though. i can handle it.
so last night i was just completely discouraged. and i got my ass handed to me, and in the chatroom after the game, the other team was talking trash about how i was just garbage, and i'd already left, b/c quite frankly, i felt like i was garbage.
i know it's lame of me to think this is so cool, but he stayed in there, and defended me without hesitation. and probs wouldn't have even told me about it if it wasn't for me asking why was he even talking to these people. he said they were an organized team, and i shouldn't be discouraged for losing to them. afterall i am new, and also that he called them human scum or something, lol. they were really being jerks in general, and he totally played the equalizer. i have to say, something about white knighting does absolutely do it for me, a certain loyalty that just makes me swoon because i feel i'm being protected. quite honestly it was pretty sweet of him.
and he spent the remainder of the next hour or so, training with me in a private game. showing me things, telling me i improved, and not just killing me (although he had many opportunities). i was so pissy, i just sat and played and tried to keep my head up but damn it's hard sometimes.
he just kept telling me to cool off, relax. he kept trying to make me laugh, singing, just being him, and i have to say to have to work at pulling me out of that shitty bratty crappy spoiled place i go to when i am not having a good one it's kind of sweet. and i'm quite taken with his efforts, and although he ended up playing more and getting pissy himself at the game, like, i just have to say he's pretty amazing.
and
i guess
that's all for now
cuz i need to get ready for work.
but like
i dunno this one's different.
and maybe i always say that and maybe it always seems like that when you first meet somebody.
but i dunno, not like this
xoxo,
Cass <3<3
but
i love that he holds himself to a certain standard - although sometimes i think he puts too much emphasis on it, it's ok though. i can handle it.
so last night i was just completely discouraged. and i got my ass handed to me, and in the chatroom after the game, the other team was talking trash about how i was just garbage, and i'd already left, b/c quite frankly, i felt like i was garbage.
i know it's lame of me to think this is so cool, but he stayed in there, and defended me without hesitation. and probs wouldn't have even told me about it if it wasn't for me asking why was he even talking to these people. he said they were an organized team, and i shouldn't be discouraged for losing to them. afterall i am new, and also that he called them human scum or something, lol. they were really being jerks in general, and he totally played the equalizer. i have to say, something about white knighting does absolutely do it for me, a certain loyalty that just makes me swoon because i feel i'm being protected. quite honestly it was pretty sweet of him.
and he spent the remainder of the next hour or so, training with me in a private game. showing me things, telling me i improved, and not just killing me (although he had many opportunities). i was so pissy, i just sat and played and tried to keep my head up but damn it's hard sometimes.
he just kept telling me to cool off, relax. he kept trying to make me laugh, singing, just being him, and i have to say to have to work at pulling me out of that shitty bratty crappy spoiled place i go to when i am not having a good one it's kind of sweet. and i'm quite taken with his efforts, and although he ended up playing more and getting pissy himself at the game, like, i just have to say he's pretty amazing.
and
i guess
that's all for now
cuz i need to get ready for work.
but like
i dunno this one's different.
and maybe i always say that and maybe it always seems like that when you first meet somebody.
but i dunno, not like this
xoxo,
Cass <3<3
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barbatruc109:
Wich sport is that love?i keep missing you online...what a bummer!
oxy:
i know. Poor me 