cassy

ahhh wednesday - another crazy one for me.
found out tonight josh's been trying to call me but his fuckin piece of SHIT phone doesn't ever have reception...really? i love how at&t is coming between me and the little bit of time i get to spend with the man i love...bastards.
grrr

anyhow got to catch up with him which was really nice i missed him so much, and he makes me laugh, i mean REALLY laugh - at him, myself, the situation, life. it's nice to have someone in my life that truly makes me smile, and my heart fills up all warm and fuzzy when he tells me he loves me, still. is it normal to continue to feel that way after being together for 4 years? i hope so. i guess as far as "Being in love" goes, i don't really know anyone in my life that's still in love, or acts like they are, after just a few years - even boyfriend/girlfriends. ESPECIALLY the married peeps. and i know my parents love each other - but they are not "into" each other after being married for 10 shakes of a donkey's ass. lol.

i wonder what the magic remedy is. josh has figured out with me, it's a mixture between asshole and sweetheart. it's a mixture between coddling me, and making me strong on my own. i'm constantly thinking about the next time we're going to see each other and how i'm going to blow his mind, again. i have a lofty list to top. the black corset, the schoolgirl outfits, french maid, etc....
next time - the bellydancer.

anyhow, i'm about to relax for the rest of my night. i did a good deal of putting away stuff (still after the move and last week's trips) and it's so hot and humid and miserable here :/ meh.

i'm gonna hit the sheets, and dream about the love of my life.
have a good one!
xoxo,
Cass