cassy

is it normal for me to be pissed off when my brother's friends bring their girlfriends over to family events?
seriously - i don't like these guys, i mean that way, just to be clear.
but something about how my parents stumble all over themselves to make these girls feel at home, it's so fake.
truth be told, more than just my parents are this way - but i think i carry a bitterness inside of me because when i wanted to bring josh over, when it meant everything to me for him to be there (as it does now) they treated him like a piece of dog shit, and made me choose between spending time with the or him.
but for some reason it's FINE for other people to have boyfriends....and girlfriends. i guess they just wanted me to be miserable.
fuck them.
sometimes they make me fuckin sick.
*off soapbox*
anyhow seeing new girlfriends tonight, made me miss my baby more. :/ i really fuckin hate sundays w/o him :/
i hate the way it makes me feel...and i know i do it to myself, but shit it's so emo, and unnecessary.
but i can't help it :/
i feel needy
and i want attention
i want his touch, and i just want him to tell me he loves me <3
which i'm sure he'll do tomorrow - but i want it now (in my best Veruca Salt voice!!!).
oh well, time to hop in bed, tank and panties, write a bit in my book (About feeing sorry for myself) and then catch some shuteye.
here's to tomorrow being a better day.

have a good one everyone!
Cass