happy 4th everyone
i plan to spend my day taking a set for PSW, and also maybe shopping
maybe swimming with the kid.
then bbq/fireworks at my brothers.
this reminds me of the FIRST 4th of July with Josh. he'd been here about a month, and of course, we'd been inseperable.
we wanted to go to a fireworks show on the beach, so we drove down to marina del rey and battled the crazies for a parking spot. right when we were on the verge of giving up, we found one! we took our towel, and headed for the sand.
when we got to the sand, there were plenty of other people setting up chairs, and picnics, and hanging out with their sweethearts and families. we were there, of course, b/c josh wasn't "allowed" to participate in any of my family shit, which to this day pisses me off but we won't go there.
i remember thinking i hate crowds, but for whatever reason, we found a spot at the base of a palm tree, and he sat and leaned back against it, and i laid my head in his lap. the sweetest fucking thing ever. i have this thing about loving to have my head in his lap. he touches my hair, and caresses my face and i cuddle him with my head, and it's just this really sweet and nurturing thing.
it finally got dark and they started the show, we laid there and watched the sparkling fireworks in the sky, surrounded by hundreds of other people, although it felt like it was just he and i. i never noticed anyone else there, it was one of those magical moments that was burned onto my brain and even though it was 4 years ago that this happened, it feels like yesterday.
i love memories like that. everytime 4th of july happens now since that first time together it makes me wish we were together on the beach, alone, away from family, amidst a bunch of strangers, just us 2. i have always felt it was "u and me against the world" with him, and i still do <3 anyhow it's just a special thing.
today all i can ask for is that my ex not show up at my brother's or i'm leaving. josh is hopefully going to see fireworks with his grandparents
i know that he's close to them but i wish he'd spend a bit more time with them as grandparents get old fast....and it's important for him to have face time with them
here's a pic of little paulina that my bro sent yesterday. she just turned 1, isn't she the cutest fuckin thing? she's fat as all hell
have a great one guys!
xoxo,
Cass

i plan to spend my day taking a set for PSW, and also maybe shopping

then bbq/fireworks at my brothers.
this reminds me of the FIRST 4th of July with Josh. he'd been here about a month, and of course, we'd been inseperable.
we wanted to go to a fireworks show on the beach, so we drove down to marina del rey and battled the crazies for a parking spot. right when we were on the verge of giving up, we found one! we took our towel, and headed for the sand.
when we got to the sand, there were plenty of other people setting up chairs, and picnics, and hanging out with their sweethearts and families. we were there, of course, b/c josh wasn't "allowed" to participate in any of my family shit, which to this day pisses me off but we won't go there.
i remember thinking i hate crowds, but for whatever reason, we found a spot at the base of a palm tree, and he sat and leaned back against it, and i laid my head in his lap. the sweetest fucking thing ever. i have this thing about loving to have my head in his lap. he touches my hair, and caresses my face and i cuddle him with my head, and it's just this really sweet and nurturing thing.
it finally got dark and they started the show, we laid there and watched the sparkling fireworks in the sky, surrounded by hundreds of other people, although it felt like it was just he and i. i never noticed anyone else there, it was one of those magical moments that was burned onto my brain and even though it was 4 years ago that this happened, it feels like yesterday.
i love memories like that. everytime 4th of july happens now since that first time together it makes me wish we were together on the beach, alone, away from family, amidst a bunch of strangers, just us 2. i have always felt it was "u and me against the world" with him, and i still do <3 anyhow it's just a special thing.
today all i can ask for is that my ex not show up at my brother's or i'm leaving. josh is hopefully going to see fireworks with his grandparents


here's a pic of little paulina that my bro sent yesterday. she just turned 1, isn't she the cutest fuckin thing? she's fat as all hell


have a great one guys!
xoxo,
Cass
Well hopefully that won't happen and you'll have a wonderful time!