cassy

it's getting chilly here.
it's almost halloween.
my costume gets delivered today.
we're carving pumpkins and decorating cookies tonight w/the kid.
i miss josh.
being apart on holidays is the ultra-shittieousness.
i wish they would just pass over my head and it'd be like they never happened sometimes.
other parts of me loves them, and cherishes them, but they aren't the same apart.
tomorrow's friday

things i'm thankful for (and never say):
-i love josh with all my heart i really do - all of him...his faults, his stubbornness (akkk), his quirks, his joking side, his serious one, his precision, his steadiness, his sweetness, his integrity.
-my friends that continue to listen to me talk about Josh, and help me thru this journey i'm on in getting to be together again. some online (you know who you are) and some here in person. i'm blessed to have great friends that love me.
-my niece, she's my sweetest thing, my happiness
-my job - i love it, i love the ppl, i love who i work for i love what i stand for i love making a difference, i love being respected, i love changing things.
-my health
-that i have learned to take care of myself, and am truly independent. i can hook up my own computer, dvd player, all these things. that i can pay my own bills and take care of MYSELF. i haven't done it before...and now i know i can
-that i have learned to be patient -it's times like now that the "old me" would throw a fit. josh is teaching me patience everyday i feel, i really do...and this is no different than the last. it pays off i know it does give it time give it time.

okay i need to get ready for work.
have a good one guys,
Cass