cassy

hey all....monday monday - manic, crazy, but good.
poor josh was busy most of the day, had a nasty headache when i talked to him tonight, and he just needed sleep.
can i tell you how much i would do to be able to come home at the end of a 10 hour day and make a fantastic meal for the love of my life? i never appreciated that before, when i had him all the time, i got lazy....complacent....i always do that it's so lame.
the truth is now i have such a different level of appreciation for this that next time we live together, things will be 1,000% better. i was thinking though, that it's a bad thing to idea to live together before you get married, in general.
i've done it now a few times, and what happens is you get stuck in a routine, and then it's like you have nothing to look forward to when you get married. you live together, you go off and get married, and you come home to the same old same old. i want something to look forward to, i want life to be different when we're married you know? i dunno maybe a bit old fashioned, but how i wanna do it.
anyway...after a hectic day, charlie took me for the most amazing sushi tonight. i had fantastic bigeye tuna sashimi, and even bluefin tuna, i feel like a fraud ,as i'm the "sustainability" seafood girl, but i just ate an endangered species!!! UT UH.
one of my favorite things i had was Uni (sea urchin) it tastes just like the smell of tidepools, amazing. we had good sake, and beer, and it was a really good meal after a hard day. it's meals like that that make me miss josh, he would have gone crazy for every last bit of it.
anyway - hope everyone has a good week.
i'm super tired, and about to go hop into bed, get nekkid and dream of my love.
goodnight
xoxo
Cass