cassy

an evenings conversation with josh makes everything seem so much better. why do i go long extended times without speaking to him?
sometimes i think i'm hiding from how much i miss him...and if i don't answer, then maybe i won't have to feel sad.
but talking to him never makes me SAD....so i dunno...i just go into periodic hiding and well i'm out now, talked to him tonight, and he was amazingly sweet full of compliments, miss yous and i love yous...what more could a girl want other than to be in his arms RIGHT this fuckin moment.
he's been driving me CRAZY with his sexual convos lately....seriously....he really knows exactly what i love, and what makes me tick. tonight i was telling him, he doesn't know EVERYTHING i like because there should be an aire of mystery about me, and he said he doesn't give a shit about mystery he just wants to do what i like nothing like being straight to the point, and believe me he DOES do what i like, everytime.....instinctually.
sundays my bday and obviously i'll be here, i'm not loving the idea, but whatevs. i will find my way to ohio if it's the last thing i do, because all this talk about what we would do to each other or we want to do or whatever is driving me batty. i think it's making me bitchy because i'm needing this man too much already.
wow it's late, not on vaycay anymore so time to sleep. nighty night kiddies....
xoxo
Cassy