cassy

sometimes things are so much more complicated then they need to be.
why am i a complicated person?
i miss my honey, and i need his kiss.
i hate being away from him more than anything i've hated in a very very long time.
i hate going thru things, day in and day out, without him, i resent him being away. i hate having to go on trips, have fun, hang out and do all this stuff without him here.....without him to share it with makes it feel really pointless sometimes.
i know he's there to be with his family and help his dad...i get it, but sometimes it just bugs me.....and tonight is one of those nights.
he's been AMAZING lately tho, really fantastically sweet and wonderful and attentive, i'm not complaining about him, just the situation. :/ fuckin sucks.
i wanted to go for my bday but now i'll have to wait a few more weeks i presume.
fuck
laughlin is friday, 3 days in the sun, hope for rays and some gambling wins. love how i have to go to laughlin w/o him, that was the only trip we ever took together out of town, was there. nice and sentimental to make me feel like shit, great.
im gonna finish laundry and pack, have a good weekend guys, hugs, Cass.