To my dearest love,
How I miss thee so. I kick myself everyday for leaving you; I often wonder why I couldnt wait just a lil while longer like you asked me too. I miss you more and more everyday and I cant get you outta my mind. I want to be in your arms just one last time...one last chance to say goodbye before you really disappear. Im sure youll never get to see this...I have no clue where you are or how to get ahold of you but if I could I would. I need to hear your voice, I need to breathe in your smell, I need to see your face and feel your touch. When I was with you everything felt right, I had everything under control and for once everyone looked up to me for having such a cute and understanding guy.
Of course I guess I really cant call you mine and I never could or probably never will. Ever since we met and had our sexual attraction youve been taken by someone else. The one you use to love but then you "fell" for me. Part of me wants to see you again just so we can talk...I really miss how you understood me and never judged me...the part wants to punch you in the face because u never even tried to leave her...and when I come back I find out you left her for your previous ex..of course I seen that coming when she came back that one month. I know ill never have you know, because you told me your heart longed for her and your daughter to come back into your life...That longing you described to me I now feel for you. All I really want is one more day with you...to show you that I totally took our friendship/relationship for granted and I at least want the friendship back because im slowly learning that without your presents in my life im totally lost and confused. I miss you Michael L Johnson, with all my heart and soul...I truly wish this could reach you somehow so we can talk one last time. So I can make sure your still alive and doing well and to apologize for not talking when you messaged me all those times...and stopping our friendship because its truly what I miss the most.
Much love,
CC
How I miss thee so. I kick myself everyday for leaving you; I often wonder why I couldnt wait just a lil while longer like you asked me too. I miss you more and more everyday and I cant get you outta my mind. I want to be in your arms just one last time...one last chance to say goodbye before you really disappear. Im sure youll never get to see this...I have no clue where you are or how to get ahold of you but if I could I would. I need to hear your voice, I need to breathe in your smell, I need to see your face and feel your touch. When I was with you everything felt right, I had everything under control and for once everyone looked up to me for having such a cute and understanding guy.
Of course I guess I really cant call you mine and I never could or probably never will. Ever since we met and had our sexual attraction youve been taken by someone else. The one you use to love but then you "fell" for me. Part of me wants to see you again just so we can talk...I really miss how you understood me and never judged me...the part wants to punch you in the face because u never even tried to leave her...and when I come back I find out you left her for your previous ex..of course I seen that coming when she came back that one month. I know ill never have you know, because you told me your heart longed for her and your daughter to come back into your life...That longing you described to me I now feel for you. All I really want is one more day with you...to show you that I totally took our friendship/relationship for granted and I at least want the friendship back because im slowly learning that without your presents in my life im totally lost and confused. I miss you Michael L Johnson, with all my heart and soul...I truly wish this could reach you somehow so we can talk one last time. So I can make sure your still alive and doing well and to apologize for not talking when you messaged me all those times...and stopping our friendship because its truly what I miss the most.
Much love,
CC
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