cassie11

Okay...so im at a loss once again...but still everything is in focus as far as where i stand and where my priorities stand....they go as followed (just so everyone has a reference point to go on)
1.) Family *no matter what always will be number one...dont care if im at work or 1000 miles away ill be in there in a heartbeat and everyone of my family members are the same way*
2.) School * if i have a report due the next day..and i have to work that night...yeah fuck u walgreens im getting an education u dont like it fire me or something mmmmkay i only have like 12 sick days so yeah whatever*
3.) Work *even tho im really starting to hate this place more and more each day...i need the cash...yes thats right cash..life is ran on money and baby i need money*
4.)Friends *i love them to death and at points im sure theyll rate over work and school and sometimes be with school...but i have to be mature about this and put it plan and simple*
5.) Boys, Girls, Parties *yeah consider it all gone unless they work into the above sechduals without conflict...and oddly enough it really dont matter so much*

Im not sure where SG stands in all of this...i havent figured it out...i check it everyday i know that now...and im sure ill update as much as possible but feel free to message me and drop me lines i love reading email makes me feel special...also ill try my hardest to work in sets but right now its just to crazy.

To expand on number 5 a bit...
For the first time in my life i realize what i want and what i need.....
Want
I want a real relationship...someone whos there for me and im there for them...someone i can give myself too ...my whole self and it not get old. They have to be understanding toward the things i do *SG for example* and need to chill out when i hang out with my guy friends and flirt because im a girl and girls flirt and he/she should know that im coming home to him...not to anyone else and no fooling around with anyone else...they need to be trust worthy and they need to trust me......
Need
Honest to god i dont need anything serious ...look at the damn list above for crying out loud im not gonna have time for myself let alone a +1. I need a person to be there for me...listen to me and let me vent my troubles...hang out and just chill and be there for my sexual frustrations as well...hey i know that sounds sluty im sure but im being stright with all of you so com on give me a break...i just want all of that in one person..which means im only gonna do it with that one person....i just need someone there for support and maybe after all this crap gets less crazy (yeah thats like 4 years away) then maybe something more...

so yeah thats what i see happening soon...and thats how it all falls into place...just a lil fyi if u wonderin where i might have ran off to...im still here just a lil more busy and organized then usual.