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So my dad is pretty much an asshole who wants nothing to do with me now. Sweet. What happened to being a daddys girl and where did things go so wrong?

I'm going to be seroiusly considering moving far away. Im going to save my money and get the hell out of here. My friends here are all shams. I have an extra ticket to go see Something Corporate this sunday in philly and no one wants to go with me. I bend over backwards for so many people and just end up getting rejected in the end. I'm so done with this. Its every man for himself here.

Who knew that getting tattoos and being yourself could cause such a huge drift in my family. My mom has been in Canada for the past week so I can't even call her and have things cleared up or at least mediated between my father and I. He told me not to come when he has his skin cancer removed on monday. It hurts. One of my biggest fears in life is being rejected and my own father doesnt want me there. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Work has been SO shitty lately. We are so understaffed its scary. I do not like drowning at work and not having help to take care of my patients and give them the care they need. I do not want to be put in a position where I can lose my license. Im sick of helping co workers and not being appreciated or helped when I need it. I need to get these things out. Sorry for being a total downer SGers but I just can't see a bright side right now. Yeah, Im healthy and have a good job etc, but what does that all mean when you don't have people in your life to be there for you. Im so sick of this.


at least I have my little furball



Oh well, hopefully things will be better when my mom gets home.
Leave me happy thoughts.