Oh happy day its the new year. Time to reflect on what happened in the past year....Ok awesome. Glad I had time to reflect. Sitting here with a headache while listening to my itunes, I thought about why I joined this site in the very beginning. I used to think it was because I was a horny 16 year old at the time. But I don't think that was it. Something lured me to this site and its women. But I think today I figured out that it was the candid nature of the women here that sucked me in. These women are exposed. Not just literally with their pictures but also emotionally. It became evident that these beautiful women were baring their souls to anyone who would listen. And thus, I realized that SG was more than a site. It was a therapy session. A long, supportive, unconventional therapy with amazing results. It offers empowerment, protection, love, support, and a constant in the lives in so many. But its the voice that it offers to so many that allows it to become something special.
I think i've come to rely on the site itself even though I myself am not equipped to be an SG. God just didn't feel I would make a great lady. But in reality, I've used this site as a opportunity to learn about the opposite sex in a way that only few can. Because unlike a majority of men on here who come on and leave comments on sets and blogs that most would expect, "your hot", "love your tits", "get more dirty next time" and more and more of the trash, I decided to listen instead. I read the stories of happiness, heartbreak, depression, medical problems, life problems, mindless ramblings, and the general. I read them all. And I learned that women are truly beautiful creations that must be cared for and nurtured just as much as they want to care and nurture for men. Constant and stability seem to be the key words of the day for most every problem. Remaining true to myself, not changing and not becoming a disloyal prick who cares only for himself. Yet chasing my dreams and being happy myself is key and crucial to women as well. I think it boils down to wanting to be a part of each others lives and sharing in the glory as well as the hard times so that in the end you can each look at each with loving eyes and each say "we made it babe." I think that is the beauty of the end we can all hope to achieve.
It should be no surprise that I've had horrible luck with women.Even though I have nailed some key points on the understanding of women, it doesn't mean I would be great at relationships. Even the guy who wrote the Kama Sutra was supposedly a virgin. Even though I listen, I care, I nurture, and I even embrace the bad boy appearance with the heart of gold, I still fail miserably. It takes a toll. It takes a huge toll truth be told. I've even had to get counseling to figure this one out. Something that I normally wouldn't do. Inevitably with all of the soul searching, I found that it's not always my fault (I blame myself for everything) and that I have to chase my own dreams and not give into someone else completely. Once I saw it from the other side perspective (I have a woman counselor), I could see that giving up on my dreams, not vocalizing my passions and constantly devoting myself to a girl lays a huge sense of guilt and worry that maybe they were hindering me from moving on. Factor in the nice guys finish last mantra and you've got me. So I've made changes in life. I've started to dare myself and do things I normally wouldn't do. I joined social clubs. I'm taking ballroom dancing lessons. I'm going to audition for theater. I'm going to hike mountains in West Virginia and might spend spring break in Joshua Tree if my finances permit. I've spent so much time pent up and wondering what life could be like, I missed out on a lot of key years. But no longer will I do that. Because life is about fun. Its a playground and it has so much to offer. And hopefully I'll meet the right girl that pushes me and loves me for being just me.
5 Songs that don't suck:
1. The Beta Band- Dry the Rain
2. Zero 7- In the Waiting Line
3. Rock Kills Kid- Hideaway
4. Radiohead- High and Dry
5. Gorillaz- Kids With Guns
Set of the Week:
Holley- Charmer..... shes got charm what can I say?
Ok since this is my last full day here at home, I took my new camera out for a spin on the town, my flickr link has the rest up on my profile or for you lazy folks its here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/30177797@N02/ I think they turned out decent.
New Camera with some new editing tools 
Shots of a hometown lakeLonely woman looking beyondOKC Bombing MemorialMidwest Night Lights
I think i've come to rely on the site itself even though I myself am not equipped to be an SG. God just didn't feel I would make a great lady. But in reality, I've used this site as a opportunity to learn about the opposite sex in a way that only few can. Because unlike a majority of men on here who come on and leave comments on sets and blogs that most would expect, "your hot", "love your tits", "get more dirty next time" and more and more of the trash, I decided to listen instead. I read the stories of happiness, heartbreak, depression, medical problems, life problems, mindless ramblings, and the general. I read them all. And I learned that women are truly beautiful creations that must be cared for and nurtured just as much as they want to care and nurture for men. Constant and stability seem to be the key words of the day for most every problem. Remaining true to myself, not changing and not becoming a disloyal prick who cares only for himself. Yet chasing my dreams and being happy myself is key and crucial to women as well. I think it boils down to wanting to be a part of each others lives and sharing in the glory as well as the hard times so that in the end you can each look at each with loving eyes and each say "we made it babe." I think that is the beauty of the end we can all hope to achieve.
It should be no surprise that I've had horrible luck with women.Even though I have nailed some key points on the understanding of women, it doesn't mean I would be great at relationships. Even the guy who wrote the Kama Sutra was supposedly a virgin. Even though I listen, I care, I nurture, and I even embrace the bad boy appearance with the heart of gold, I still fail miserably. It takes a toll. It takes a huge toll truth be told. I've even had to get counseling to figure this one out. Something that I normally wouldn't do. Inevitably with all of the soul searching, I found that it's not always my fault (I blame myself for everything) and that I have to chase my own dreams and not give into someone else completely. Once I saw it from the other side perspective (I have a woman counselor), I could see that giving up on my dreams, not vocalizing my passions and constantly devoting myself to a girl lays a huge sense of guilt and worry that maybe they were hindering me from moving on. Factor in the nice guys finish last mantra and you've got me. So I've made changes in life. I've started to dare myself and do things I normally wouldn't do. I joined social clubs. I'm taking ballroom dancing lessons. I'm going to audition for theater. I'm going to hike mountains in West Virginia and might spend spring break in Joshua Tree if my finances permit. I've spent so much time pent up and wondering what life could be like, I missed out on a lot of key years. But no longer will I do that. Because life is about fun. Its a playground and it has so much to offer. And hopefully I'll meet the right girl that pushes me and loves me for being just me.
5 Songs that don't suck:
1. The Beta Band- Dry the Rain
2. Zero 7- In the Waiting Line
3. Rock Kills Kid- Hideaway
4. Radiohead- High and Dry
5. Gorillaz- Kids With Guns
Set of the Week:
Holley- Charmer..... shes got charm what can I say?
Ok since this is my last full day here at home, I took my new camera out for a spin on the town, my flickr link has the rest up on my profile or for you lazy folks its here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/30177797@N02/ I think they turned out decent.
New Camera with some new editing tools Shots of a hometown lakeLonely woman looking beyondOKC Bombing MemorialMidwest Night LightsVIEW 12 of 12 COMMENTS
lainee:
MTSU.
lainee:
thats a hard one haha, i probably would have to go without sex for a year..i think i could do that. i love food too much and to give that up for life, thats too intense haha. when eventually after a year i can have both!..woooo