carolanne

I'm sad...well maybe not so much sad as nostalgic. I hate winter. It reminds me of my first real love and everything we had and gave up. We go in circles so much. I lost him in winter....and here I am, losing him again, this time to his schooling. We both know that right now we can't hope for anything to come about, as he is moving to NY in December. We can only really hope for another chance, and I have promised to write him letters full of all my wonderous noise and banter. He makes me wonder if I ever truly will get over him. I can't really say I will ever stop caring for him, because we have this weird connection that I can't quite explain. I wish him luck and love. I hope he finds what he is looking for.

I've had this urge lately to just settle down. I want to write love letters and to dedicate my time and affections to someone worthy of them. Maybe it's just the change of season getting to me. Winter makes me feel alone sometimes.

I think my favourite thing in the world are secret admirers. I'm such a hopeless romantic that it's ridiculous.

In lieu of all this, I think it is appropriate to say that I have a crush.

bet you can't guess.

xoxox.