carnelian

Dying and need a breathing apparatus like Vader?
My secret is I love stories from people who've truly lived their lives. Or perhaps it's not a secret anymore.

i wish i was feeling good, but the aloe with lidocaine apparently wears off after about an hour and a half and, ironically, about the same time the advil did...so, while i was in an excellent mood when writing the blog, not so much about 30 minutes later...and i couldn't even sleep in his arms 'cause my skin is literally on fire!! i had to peel my leg off the bed 'cause it had kind of gotten stuck to the sheets from the stickiness of the aloe...holy mother fucking balls, that was some pain!!!.

Why hewooooo. Your profile picture is pretty amazing actually. And now I can see from your other pictures that you're totally bluffing. But I'll gladly take many pictures of you

yeah, i know, theory is easy, but feeling that things will be ok some day is completely another thing... but keep going, girl!! \o/

and we definetly should chat more!!

awesome energy sent your way

Good luck.

I do like #1...Aili is very unique (at least in my experience), and I think still applies once you translated. From the short time I've learned about you, and from the photos of you seen, 'Bright' fits you well in my opinion. You do light up a room with your smile and personality. But I do agree on one point above, that feedback is good, but at the end of the day, you should pick the one that feels most right to you.

On a side note, I've been seriously considering changing my name as well, to reflect a powerful turning point in my life. I'm going by Dean here, to try it out, I may change my first name to that. If you're inclined to share your experience, I'd be very curious to hear how the process goes to make the change, as I may be going through the same in the near future.

sure um.. ok!

Owww, that reminds me that i have to water my cacti... and get my bike fixed!! o_O

i saw you on the gay girls only group today! i didn't knew you were gay! that's so nice!!

i was sad to hear about all your story with your ex, and not having found anyone yet... i know exactly how crappy that feels! i was quite in the same situation till a while ago, only i hadn't had anything serious with the person.. but it was a great friend of mine that told me he was in love with me, and by that time i liked him alright, but not that much... but then i fell in love with him, REALLY in love with, only thing was that he didn't want anything with me anymore! Then i spent almost 2 years absolutely lost, not actually liking him anymore, but it fell empty cause there was no one to replace such an intense feeling.. I was feeling like crap. I actually believed that i wasn't worthy of anyone's love, cause all the few nice people i've met in all this time went away..
But a couple months ago, when i wasn't expecting anything to happen anymore, out from nowhere came this girl, which was the best thing that ever happened to me, and now she's teaching me how great is the worldagain, and making me wanna do stuff, and making me feel worthy.

Ookay, sorry for all this oww-sentimental-clich-life-story, but i don't know,when you're out of a bad moment, everything seems so releasing! But ooookay, i shared this wiht you to say this:
So, things may take a while, a LONG while sometimes, but someday someone always comes up. :3
You're nice, i'm sure you will find someone that REALLY loves you, and that deserves your love.

Sorry again for all that.
Wish you all the best, dear!

two year old, damnit.

good for you! i agree with you on both points! people are fucked! and two i work at a place where we sold kombucha and i needed to drink at least 2 of those a day! i totally think its a comspiracy! no joke. they dont want anything out there that would do anyone good.

yay! ya, it's supposed to say sin

surprisingly, some of it, nice work
ironically my head usually spells out similar curses of work when it hits the keyboard.

im not sure if I understood this part... SHSfiyeiyewiysksfgsgfkwgweiy

cab tiy ckear that one up? lol hahah just kidding