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carnelian

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as the moon was setting

Nov 19, 2013
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This morning, just a short time ago, as I drove with all the hundreds of other people going on their way to the places where they earn the money to feed their families, their habits, killing trees, I felt as though still in a dream. I remembered all the styrofoam that littered the streets yesterday and remembered how it never dies. Something caught my attention and when I turned to look I saw a V formation of birds headed south fly before the moon and the moon slowly sinking past the dark grey clouds and standing out from the light blue sky heading toward a rocky bed of a dimly lit mountain range. Trees in the foreground shown with the golden hues of the sun behind me. As I woke the moon seemed to settle down. Her brilliant strength of last night was calmed.

Each day feels so the same on the surface. But I am remembering secrets. These are things that help me stand off the blues and radiate with golden and white hues. Every day I meet someone new to me. And I embed a piece of my soul within his/her heart. And so I am living around the world. I am even finding myself in the moons of other worlds. . .As the moon was setting I saw my self spinning. with others. so that we were a swirl of colors! You remember how I told you that I can never get lost? I wish I could. I think it would be very fun and incredibly interesting. But I always know where I am.

Ive been battling with the anxiety of always being in the same place though the planes may change, Im always in this sort of capsule. I wonder if I could be consumed, digested, dispersed.

As the moon was setting I remembered the divinity in moments that seem mundane.

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damian_stark:
In your quest to get lost, try not to become so in the day-to-day. Been there. It is a shallow kind of death. Change and grow and learn. These are the keys to life. Stagnation and loss of hope turn rusted tumblers and lock the doors that lead to the next place you need to be, so keep spinning. Keep touching. You are not alone out here in the Great Empty.
Nov 29, 2013
damian_stark:
(And if I song-bombed you with that last, all the better).
Nov 29, 2013

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