carnelian

my new favorite movie.

and you must know!!
yesterday a friend and I began our journey to the 16th street mall for our lunch break. In the hall just outside my classroom I saw the most beautiful girl. we made perfect eye contact for about ten seconds as we walked toward each other. at one moment I made a certain smile just for her. one of those that says all my thoughts of how I'd love to take her into my will. then she complimented me and smiled. I lost all confidence I melted and became soo very shy. I barely could thank her. after we passed I looked back to find she also was looking back at me. I smiled more. then my friend who was walking with me said to her, "I like your hair." I almost punched him in the face. I love her hair her eyes her skin. For the rest of the day I kicked myself for not saying anything to her. I wanted to see her I wanted to see very much of her. the feeling was so strong I could not contain myself. I almost went home sick.

anyway. today i woke feeling ill. I went to school took some pills tried to relax. I took a ride to the nearby grocery. I needed to get myself out of a funk real quick. when I returned to school my friend came rushing out of the barber shop saying to me that he had been calling me to tell me to get back there ASAP because the girl was sitting outsid very obviously waiting for me because she was taking no interest in any of the guys who were all swarming her. and of course upon my return she was nowhere to be seen. so I was even more distraught. by lunch I was moodily wandering around just out in the hall wondering what I ought to eat or if I should just go home when I saw her!! I walked up to her and we talked for some time oblivious to every one else around us. I learned very many wonderful things about her and she asked me for my phone number before she had to depart. almost immediately after she left, she sent me a message and we have been talking ever since!! I find this all to be quite amazing surreal fantastic. . .but I am nervous. we have similar interests so far but its only been a day. and a fast day at that. I am afraid of the speed. but her beauty!! and her booty!! oh my god i just dont know what to do!!! she wants to come over tonight. I dont know if i should have her over so soon...I would like it to be nice and slow a sweet romantic sort of thing. i know i am thinking too much but i cant help it. this sort of thing never happens to me.