mmkay, so i can finally insert something with...a lack of meaning? rather than wait for somethings or others. anyways...i finally returned from Miami. i would have put in a word or two while i was gone, but i was staying at my uncle's home, and he has a 11 yr. old girl...which would in turn make her my cousin...and this site is "inappropriate for her innocent eyes." such stupidity. 
miami was okay. the weather was terrible, the cousins are spoiled little bitch brats, the women are nosey, the men are too conservative. and the list goes on. but it gave me time to asses and reasses some things...Eli kept saying that i'm boring. and i thought, yes, yes i am boring, but so is she. she's narrow minded in that she's being raised in a bubble, thus, the opinion of her parents are highly influential, and "always right." but at the same time, when she steps out of her little bubble, to bounce into someone else's bubble, they tend to seep in little bits and pieces of dirt. and little by little others are chipping away at her "innocence." but she herself does not enjoy her childhood. all of this left me wondering, was i like that as a child?? i thought back upon my childhood...unsheltered and with my eyes wide open, or as wide as they could go, i saw, i learned, i expeirenced somethings, that i know, she never will. but, who's the luckier one here? me for knowing, or her for her blissful ignorance?
she's also boring in that her life consists of "the amazing invention of" the telly. if we weren't out somewhere, she sat on her ass watching television. but it wasn't anything of quality. it was shit. now, granted, just about everything on television is shit these days, but, the fucking teletubbies are far more educational than the shit she watched. she would vegetate on VH1 and MTV. thus, her vocabulary is limited to "awesome", "cool", and "hot". her "heros" are people like fucking 50 Cent and Eminem. now, yes, some of Eminems songs are interesting or whatnot, but, she fucking worships him. she sits there and absorbs all the most mindless things she possibly can. which naturally pissed me off when she said i was boring, so i told her that at least i can express my ennui in more words than just, "i'm bored." and that, in all honesty, i am less boring than her mostly because i can hold a conversation with a person that goes beyond the realm of, "omg, did you like, see that like, new avril music video? like, omfg!" that pissed her off, and got her to say, "whatever!" my my, what a big word for such a little lady, careful there eli, you just might hurt yourself with that word! lmfao!! stupid little child. oh! one of my personal favorite episodes with Eli this week was when i finished Animal Farm, once again. she asked me if the ended in was good, so i sarcastically told her, "Oh g-d, it was so much better the second time cuz i had the option of an alternate ending! this time, the pigs lost!" she was stupid and was like, "omg, you can pick an alternate ending to the book!? i didnt know that!" i had to explain that i was being sarcastic, and she merely asked what sarcasm was. i told her to look it up in the dictionary, but she said that that was boring and rolled her stupid little eyes at me being her response to everything that makes her 
. her anger made me giggle 
. but anyways, i told her that in the end, the pigs become man, and the animal in man can be seen through that. she thought i meant that the pigs somehow, though magic, become actual people. i told her to read the book. ("but reading is boring!" which is why you're stupid Eli.)
*sigh* okay, enough of that rant. i'm tired of talking about her. but i had to
all of that out somehow. and now that i have, i feel so much better! 
good times my dear, good times indeed.
miami was okay. the weather was terrible, the cousins are spoiled little bitch brats, the women are nosey, the men are too conservative. and the list goes on. but it gave me time to asses and reasses some things...Eli kept saying that i'm boring. and i thought, yes, yes i am boring, but so is she. she's narrow minded in that she's being raised in a bubble, thus, the opinion of her parents are highly influential, and "always right." but at the same time, when she steps out of her little bubble, to bounce into someone else's bubble, they tend to seep in little bits and pieces of dirt. and little by little others are chipping away at her "innocence." but she herself does not enjoy her childhood. all of this left me wondering, was i like that as a child?? i thought back upon my childhood...unsheltered and with my eyes wide open, or as wide as they could go, i saw, i learned, i expeirenced somethings, that i know, she never will. but, who's the luckier one here? me for knowing, or her for her blissful ignorance?
she's also boring in that her life consists of "the amazing invention of" the telly. if we weren't out somewhere, she sat on her ass watching television. but it wasn't anything of quality. it was shit. now, granted, just about everything on television is shit these days, but, the fucking teletubbies are far more educational than the shit she watched. she would vegetate on VH1 and MTV. thus, her vocabulary is limited to "awesome", "cool", and "hot". her "heros" are people like fucking 50 Cent and Eminem. now, yes, some of Eminems songs are interesting or whatnot, but, she fucking worships him. she sits there and absorbs all the most mindless things she possibly can. which naturally pissed me off when she said i was boring, so i told her that at least i can express my ennui in more words than just, "i'm bored." and that, in all honesty, i am less boring than her mostly because i can hold a conversation with a person that goes beyond the realm of, "omg, did you like, see that like, new avril music video? like, omfg!" that pissed her off, and got her to say, "whatever!"
my my, what a big word for such a little lady, careful there eli, you just might hurt yourself with that word! lmfao!! stupid little child. oh! one of my personal favorite episodes with Eli this week was when i finished Animal Farm, once again. she asked me if the ended in was good, so i sarcastically told her, "Oh g-d, it was so much better the second time cuz i had the option of an alternate ending! this time, the pigs lost!" she was stupid and was like, "omg, you can pick an alternate ending to the book!? i didnt know that!" i had to explain that i was being sarcastic, and she merely asked what sarcasm was. i told her to look it up in the dictionary, but she said that that was boring and rolled her stupid little eyes at me being her response to everything that makes her . her anger made me giggle . but anyways, i told her that in the end, the pigs become man, and the animal in man can be seen through that. she thought i meant that the pigs somehow, though magic, become actual people. i told her to read the book. ("but reading is boring!" which is why you're stupid Eli.)
*sigh* okay, enough of that rant. i'm tired of talking about her. but i had to
all of that out somehow. and now that i have, i feel so much better!
good times my dear, good times indeed.