Give me a cause to bleed for
Work sucked. The whole time I was obsessing on the fact that I ruined my day and how my night was going to be spent doing mind-numbing, repetitive bullshit. Not to be all ber-negative or anything...but then again I haven't been the most positive person as of late.
Ok, I've just spent ten minutes or so staring at my Nataraj statue and realized I need something to occupy my mind. That and something to keep me active, because given a choice lately I'd just rather curl up into a ball and avoid.
I used to write- haven't in ages.
I used to like doing drarwings- not anymore.
I used to read- hah.
I used to find a genre of movie and absorb everything I could about that genre- I'm so behind on mainstream movies let alone obscure ones...
I used to love hiking- that was before the cigs and sedentary lifestyle (excuse).
I used to play guitar and bass- I ain't touched either one forever.
What have I spent my time doing? Nothing. I wish I could even say it was spent drinking. I don't even really get to do that much anymore (the payback it is too rough for me with working nights for some reason).
Argghh. I'm supposed to call my old boss today and let him know what days I'd be available to work. I think I'm good for 3-4 days a week alongside this job. A couple of those days will be brutal with working all day and then that night too, but the money can't be beat (at least for me at the moment).
I gotta sort this shit out. Hope your 4th was good.
Later.
Work sucked. The whole time I was obsessing on the fact that I ruined my day and how my night was going to be spent doing mind-numbing, repetitive bullshit. Not to be all ber-negative or anything...but then again I haven't been the most positive person as of late.
Ok, I've just spent ten minutes or so staring at my Nataraj statue and realized I need something to occupy my mind. That and something to keep me active, because given a choice lately I'd just rather curl up into a ball and avoid.
I used to write- haven't in ages.
I used to like doing drarwings- not anymore.
I used to read- hah.
I used to find a genre of movie and absorb everything I could about that genre- I'm so behind on mainstream movies let alone obscure ones...
I used to love hiking- that was before the cigs and sedentary lifestyle (excuse).
I used to play guitar and bass- I ain't touched either one forever.
What have I spent my time doing? Nothing. I wish I could even say it was spent drinking. I don't even really get to do that much anymore (the payback it is too rough for me with working nights for some reason).
Argghh. I'm supposed to call my old boss today and let him know what days I'd be available to work. I think I'm good for 3-4 days a week alongside this job. A couple of those days will be brutal with working all day and then that night too, but the money can't be beat (at least for me at the moment).
I gotta sort this shit out. Hope your 4th was good.
Later.
and a lack of motivation sucks.