carcharores

update:
isadora is off her breathing machine!! yay!! which is really good because most babies her size would still be on it and she is doing well she lost 3 oz. but thats normal she is still being fed through a tube but i have tried to breatfeed her but her latch isnt good enough nor can she suckle hard enough to get milk...so sometimes i just squirt a lil bit into her mouth and the doctor said that if it wasnt for the 5 lbs. rule that she'd prolly go home sooner than she will

story:
on wed. may 30th i went to the er cuz my bp was too high it was 197/120 so they transfered me to a better hospital after a few hours and i was having steady but mild contractions that ranged from 2 to 4 min apart and they told me that i would not go full term but that thery were gonna try to keep me pregnant for a few weeks so they gave me an iv of magnesium(the worst hing ever) and medicine to try to stop my contractions ...and omg i was so swollen on sat before i went to the er i weighed 144 on wed at the hospital i weighed157 and this is really gross but my labia was so swollen that i swear to god my lips were bigger than kevins penis.... it was very painful...that was wed. on thur . in the morning they sed that i would prolly deliver within the week then in the afternoon they sed within 72 hours...and the whole time i was in the hospital my baby was fine her stats was great ....at 5:30 the doctor said that he wanted to enduce me at midnight but that he wanted to do it sooner but couldnt because they gave me two shots of steroids to help her lungs but they needed 24 hrs to get the full effect..but they couldnt wait because my kidneys were failing...and he said that they might need to do an emergency c-section ....then at 5:40 he sed "no we need to get that baby out of you now youre too sick to go through labor" she would of made it through labor but i prolly wouldnt have ...i prolly would of barely made it to midnight cuz i was so sick...so 7:40 she was born....and i have major claustrophobia so after they took her out i started to panic because i didnt like that i couldnt feel my legs so they knocked me out and then i couldnt see my baby til sat. they wouldnt let me get out of bed... but thats it...not a pleasant experience and im having a delayed reaction to what happened cuz when all this was going on i didnt freak out or cry or anything cuz i knew i couldnt but when i think it about i get scared and start sobbing even though its over and done with