Hmm... everything is starting to make sense. I don't trust beautiful people. I lack trust for them on some sort of visceral level. I can feel it in my gut. At least I realize this now.
I feel like no-one understands my insanity. Would one call it insanity? or is it just an altered sense things?...
I feel like the people i meet on a daily basis are picking me apart, Thread by thread.
So, I put up this barrier... Don't talk to me, don't look at me.. stay back 50 feet please
It's painful. I don't know if I'm alone in the world but it sure seems like it. My personality doesn't help.
I'm an asshole without even trying. I have no sense of the niceties of normal society. If i don't like you I'm probably going to tell you right then and there. Other people just don't do that, and that's why i can't trust them.
I feel like no-one understands my insanity. Would one call it insanity? or is it just an altered sense things?...
I feel like the people i meet on a daily basis are picking me apart, Thread by thread.
So, I put up this barrier... Don't talk to me, don't look at me.. stay back 50 feet please
It's painful. I don't know if I'm alone in the world but it sure seems like it. My personality doesn't help.
I'm an asshole without even trying. I have no sense of the niceties of normal society. If i don't like you I'm probably going to tell you right then and there. Other people just don't do that, and that's why i can't trust them.
Being forthright doesn't mean you have to be rude to people. Maybe work a bit more on the mental block? I have struggled for years with everything I'm thinking coming right out of my mouth. It doesn't always make for pleasant encounters.
I'm ashamed of this as I'd really like to be able to get along with everyone... but somewhere in my psyche i have a big ... annoying... preconception
Thanks for the comment!