captaincaliena

Ah, what to update with. Well, I'm one lazy bitch, thats pretty much all there is to say. I still haven't sent in any of my possible sets. I think I'm afraid of rejection. I feel bad being on the girls' asses about my log in information and now I'm dragging my own ass getting a set turned in. Now the set I wanted to turn in and thought was great I'm having second thoughts about. Sigh...Why do I suck?

The boyfriend is really nervous about the whole thing. He's like "No shots below the waist?" and I was like, "Sweety, it's a pin up site for a reason..." I understand where he's coming from, though. I don't think anyone would want their significant other naked on the internet for millions of people to look at. Thats just my opinion though.

Besides...I could really use the money that this pays. That is assuming that I ever get a damn set turned in! AHH!

My art is going absolutely no where. Its so frustrating to think that you have talent and yet not sell a single piece. I'm not even charging that much! I don't know what to do. I'm really starting to question if this whole artist thing is for me. It's what I love doing, but at this point I'm wondering "Is this gonna happen for me?" Maybe I should just consider getting a "normal" job and be done with it. The only people who buy shit off me are my friends and my mom. Mostly that last one. I should just stop charging her. At this point, it's worthless to charge her for something that is never gonna be worth anything anyway.

I really want to walk to town and get new brushes right now. Too bad my body says otherwise...