Why is it that I seem to define my happiness by my romantic status? My first week or two single were great, but now I find myself wanting companionship more and more. I've got an amazing female friend, who is most definitely my best friend. She's perfect. But I can't help but want even more, to have that romantic connection that we already half-have. Why do I find it so high on my priority to have a girlfriend. It's not about having regular sex. Its just companionship, having someone to hold, and to kiss. Have I been programmed by movies and society since I was a teen? Is it because my parents have an amazing, happy marriage and always have, and seeing this my entire life it's become something I need? I really don't know. All I know is I hate being alone, feeling like a part of me is missing.
