capp

Okay, so denial was never the answer.

but for the whole of my life I have been dwelling in it. at first it was just men, and I was content. but dammit. with a liberal family that will accept you any way you are...it was just to damn tempting to explore other options. and then those other options became half the explanation for my sexuality. now it's not like I was so far in denial that I never thought about it. and yeah, it's not like I couldn't ever see it happening. but it is. not past tense, unfortunettly the transition isn't as simple as you are or your not. there's people you have to inform. especially when one of them is on the male side of the gene pool, and also your partner for almost a year.

that seemed to be what kept me going. "it's almost been a year, you've never had that before" so that's right. I never did. especially not with any guys. and there was a good reason for that. that I just never took realisation of. in till now, so now I have to tell people. I guess it proves that lesbians aren't heartless though, because all this breaking up so that I can love again, is really heart wrentching. and slightly dramatic. where the hell are the cameras. reality is even more dramatic then the under paid actors of those poorly constructed soap operas.

but I dunno, I guess tha'ts life and you just have to deal with it. because it happens either way and you can either be prepared or you can be taken by storm.

I was never a fan of the later