capnvik

I really need a hug
Every time I want to wallow in self pitty someones got to fuck it up for me & have it worse. I've been in this melloncholly funk lately. Totally unloved, & sometimes even hated by people that I take care of. The wife stills tells me she hopes I die even though I'm the only one working & the only reason I haven't bailed is, if I do she's homeless. The girl that's been on my mind for over a decade wants to be friends. The girl I was dating but stopped because she's kinda flakey but decided to to ask her out again because we allways had a good time. Calls me to let me know she just tested positive for ovarian cancer. Damn, girls will say anything to keep from going out with me.
I guess I shouldn't have told her "Atleast you don't have throat cancer "
The relationship was pretty casual so I don't feel right about acting like the concerned boy friend and honestly I don't know if I can handle it.
She's a really nice girl & I like her but it was never going to be a forever thing.
So I feel like a total asshole for bitchcing about my probs when she's going through this.Which makes me feel even worse about myself.

Enough about me here's the Tilly