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I have nuthing worth an update to write. Starting to get cabin fever. I'm so sick of this bed. Staring at the ceiling. I tried to sleep away most of yesterday. That backfired. I ended up being incapable of sleep during the night and it was twice as frustrating. There is nuthing in my room. No radio nuthing. I'm locked in a box and I cant even get up to pace. I havent felt this ruffed up since.......Not going there.

The shoulder is almost back to normal. I didnt wince from the weight of this laptop. Yesterday it was too heavy to put back on the floor so i slept on it like a pillow. I really should have put a poster in this room. Instead i'm playing with the candlelight reflections. Knee is throbbing but i cant afford another emergency room visit.

I feel like the guy in Metalica's "One" video. I want to lash out. My only visitors today got a very moodswingy me. So glad I didnt take the painkillers. Self control is hard as it is.

lol I can feel my personality deteriorating. Second I can get up from bed i'm leaving the house. And enjoying the sun. It better be sunny or I'll make nature pay.