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Ok it's like this. This is the painful horrible reality.

There are people who are a part of my life. They participate, inluence, and make up a part of my life. My day tomorrow would be different if they disappeared from it.

Then there's everyone else.

Sorry but that's the way life is. Theres each person's individual world and then whatever's outside it. I don't run from this fact. I don't hide it. When someone asks why I don't call, or write or care, this is what I tell them. If they don't like it, change it.

With that said, I am not afraid to say this part.

I don't care.

I don't care if some guy I never met is your exboyfriend and he beat you. There's a thousand different after school specials out there tellin you what to do. Leave me alone. Not My problem.

I don't care if your girlfriend dumped you. I see you once every 3 months. It's unfortunate and all, but I can't bring myself to feel hurt with you.

With that said I find myself constantly being approched by the problems of others. Ever since I was in High school. Strangers and friends alike. Always wanting me to give advice, or listen, or mediate. Getting me involved. When did I sign up for this? Dude when was the last time you called? Why the fuck do you think I care?

Hi, I have a lot of drama in my life. Care for a slice?

Leave that shit at the door. Don't force me to say what you don't want to hear. There is no us. See that guy? He's my buddy. We hang out every weekend. He comes to my events. I go to his. I've met his parents, chill with his GF, eat at his house. You are a girl I don't do anything with, not even in my world at all. You don't date or fuck anyone I know. You don't have a cute friend I chill with. If you dissappeared would I know? If you won the lottery would I care? Sorry, it is what it is.

You wanna get to know me better? GET TO KNOW ME BETTER!!! Chill with me once a week, meet my friends, make an investment. Make me want to invest in you my time and energy. I'm a very busy person. I am not a charitible person who wastes time on people for nothin. Callin me tellin me only when your dog dies or you lose your job doesn't count. I can get random life facts from callin random people in Alaska.

Sigh> the holidays apparently make me vent a lot. I think I just need to get a good lay. That's gonna require some free time. And maybe a new outfit. A fresh razor. Shoe shine.
<Sigh> Why can't women come freeze dried at the grocery store. That way you don't have to get dressed up to find one. You only need to put effort when it's time to enjoy them. You women need to get your act together. Your startin to not be worth the effort.