Ok I feel REAL shitty! I mean horrible!
Before I say why let me just say that I'm really bad at this. But I mean well.
Ok, so I'm at Katar Bar alone enjoying dinner and drinks tryin to wind down and get ready for my first day tomorrow at the new job. And this girl shows up I'm seeing. OK, no prob, nice surprise. So she tells her friend to give her a second and sits down.
"This is cool. I've been trying to get a hold of you cause I wanna talk to you about something" she says.
"Ok what's up?" I say.
"...See?....I really like you a lot and the last 2 months have been great......and" you see where this is going.
Status check: Girl is real smart, hot, aggressive, and I honestly like her a lot, faults are she's a lil inexperienced in bed, she's a mean drunk, and tries to get me jealous a lot and gets pissy when I don't.
" So I was wondering how you felt about getting a little more invloved and serious about us?"
OH CRAP
I'm not a male slut. I'm not afraid of commitment. I don't cheat. I'm not selfish or whatever other bull you've seen from most guys show. Truth is I'm a one-woman-guy. Always have been, always will be. I take my promises very seriously. I'm just not ready. More specifically: I don't have my life the way I want it, that I'm ready to invite and share it with someone else. You go into a relationship broken, you have a broken relationship. Sounds easy enough to explain right?
"Umm" i blurt out.
Long story short. I broke it off with her. I told her I've got to much on my plate. And if I did it I wouldn't be able to give her the attention she deserves of an actual "Boyfriend". I'd make her miserable, I'd be miserable, and we'd grow to hate each other and I didn't want that.
I hate this, I really hate this. She literally wilted right in front of me. And her night was just starting. God i suck. So I said I didn't want her outta my life cause she was cool as hell. And if she wanted to stop or just be friends or whatever she wanted I'd understand.
So I went home early, and I'm writin my journal tonight cuz tomorrow I'm gonna be busy.
Wish me luck at the new job. And have a great day everyone
Before I say why let me just say that I'm really bad at this. But I mean well.
Ok, so I'm at Katar Bar alone enjoying dinner and drinks tryin to wind down and get ready for my first day tomorrow at the new job. And this girl shows up I'm seeing. OK, no prob, nice surprise. So she tells her friend to give her a second and sits down.
"This is cool. I've been trying to get a hold of you cause I wanna talk to you about something" she says.
"Ok what's up?" I say.
"...See?....I really like you a lot and the last 2 months have been great......and" you see where this is going.
Status check: Girl is real smart, hot, aggressive, and I honestly like her a lot, faults are she's a lil inexperienced in bed, she's a mean drunk, and tries to get me jealous a lot and gets pissy when I don't.
" So I was wondering how you felt about getting a little more invloved and serious about us?"
OH CRAP
I'm not a male slut. I'm not afraid of commitment. I don't cheat. I'm not selfish or whatever other bull you've seen from most guys show. Truth is I'm a one-woman-guy. Always have been, always will be. I take my promises very seriously. I'm just not ready. More specifically: I don't have my life the way I want it, that I'm ready to invite and share it with someone else. You go into a relationship broken, you have a broken relationship. Sounds easy enough to explain right?
"Umm" i blurt out.
Long story short. I broke it off with her. I told her I've got to much on my plate. And if I did it I wouldn't be able to give her the attention she deserves of an actual "Boyfriend". I'd make her miserable, I'd be miserable, and we'd grow to hate each other and I didn't want that.
I hate this, I really hate this. She literally wilted right in front of me. And her night was just starting. God i suck. So I said I didn't want her outta my life cause she was cool as hell. And if she wanted to stop or just be friends or whatever she wanted I'd understand.
So I went home early, and I'm writin my journal tonight cuz tomorrow I'm gonna be busy.
Wish me luck at the new job. And have a great day everyone
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well Im off to work. I got a late start on the day.
enjoy your day off!