...yeah, that's a sweet commericial....i work with a guy whose last name is funk...i find it ever soo hard not to sing george clinton to him whilest gettin my groove on....one day it'll happen...he's still kinda new & i'm waitin til he's settled & won't be too scared away by my antics....
back to my ramblings of non-work related ventin....i feel like i don't make anyone happy...like i'm really not that important in a good way...like i'm just a giant burden...even when i'm appreciated at work, it's with consequence of more frustration & more work....i know tis just me.....and pardon my emo...
i dunno what's wrong with me....i need to get outta of it....the only time lately i've really felt all warm & fuzzy & good & happy was valentine's day...i worked til 8p...we were crazy busy between 6-8...then my puppy picked me up & had me some chocolate treats...took me home to tulips 
...i took a bath whilest he started some dinner...then i watched sammy davis jr on tv whilest he finished dinner...twas indeed lovely...and all thanks to my lovely puppy who indeed keeps me sane...i feel as though i don't do enough to make him feel special either...to make him feel as appreciated as he actually is...and this doubt i have in my ability to make others happy only magnifies my own self-esteem issues.... 
i also feel like i have lil reason for this account...i rarely blog...i rarely comment...there's an ocassional post to certain groups....i couldn't tell you the last time i looked at a set 
....it's kinda sad...i want to live life in the real world but the real world life is unsatisfying in the ways the interwebz are supposed to be fillin voids...friends, entertainment, & such...grrrr....
okie...fun stuffs....
i love the following things....
okie...i've randomly rambled long enough & should pretend i'm not surfin interwebz @ work ....until next time kids....
back to my ramblings of non-work related ventin....i feel like i don't make anyone happy...like i'm really not that important in a good way...like i'm just a giant burden...
the only time lately i've really felt all warm & fuzzy & good & happy was valentine's day...
...i feel as though i don't do enough to make him feel special either...to make him feel as appreciated as he actually is...and this doubt i have in my ability to make others happy only magnifies my own self-esteem issues....
i can't speak for generalities here. making "anyone" happy is different than making me happy because i am not "just anyone" to you. life is frustrating when the things you work hardest for doesn't give much back. and what you tend to *do best* usually revolve around the things you have the most experience with. honestly, you have several more years of experience with your job than you do with me. which in ways i can see how it's easy for you to get caught up at work when i'm supposed to be driving you home, or even going days, weeks, months of never giving yourself a decent lunchbreak. you're not prioritizing your own happiness and the time you deserve for you. screw emo, you do deserve it!
honestly, if you want to *make me happy*, do something for you. i am already happier than you seem to be realizing, but i have been discouraged as of late by your health, your stress-load, and perhaps our lack of plans to solve looming frustrations. (though i see them as external, though we seem to make them a bit worse than they actually are.) however, since i am making it a project of mine to fulfill some promises i have made to you (as you know), i am promising that i will be a patient, loving puppy/boyfriend. i do have confidence in us.
i've already stated that i am leaving sg as it doesn't make sense for us both to have accounts here. you are the reason why i joined though and it makes me sad that you haven't made the time to put into it and get out of it. but this is your choice.
Thanks for the well wishes. I hope we can be friends in the future. He is a good guy. Have a wonderful day!