candykydfairy

so the evil lil bitch seems to have cut & run...lil ms.optimist that is....now i am left to battle this angry pack of monsters with a headful of questions & doubt...yesterday twas wonderful & fabulous & magnificent & spectacular & superb & lots of other lovely adjectives....but alas....i fear that the noise inside my head destroys me & threatens my ability to enjoy lovely...my mind assaults me on a regular basis & causes me to question if something is wrong with me....it doesn't help that there are sooo many things in my life lately that are foreign territory that i try ever sooo hard to play it cool for...but alas, i'm no fonz....i want so much yet am plagued by my inability to convey some things and how i shall not say some things for fear of upsetting a delicate balance...but as all who know me are aware....i feel that not saying what you are thinking is slightly bein a liar sometimes...i tend to go half truth sometimes when i speak of such things....for i want not to ruin anything...but tis slightly eatin at me i do believe...i've a tendency to talk too much as well as think too much....and i've a tendency to be an open book...but lately i don't show as many pages as i used to...and tis slightly a fear of things i've always feared....i am a girl....i always knew it physically..duh....but it now comes to my attention that i may also be one mentally & emotionally....and it helps me none at all when other girls feel the need to criticize my ability to be a girl in these new arenas...maybe i don't do it like everyone else...i've always been good at doin things my own way...and i shouldn't ramble anymore about things i can't fix...

this made me happy today....
my technicolor puppy army



question time....

1. why do you read my ramblings?

2. help me make a cd....name a song about puppies or bunnies....

3.yep...youtube dedicate me kids...