we could all use a lil change...
the last few days have been truly wonderful!...
things at work are slightly tolerable & i seem to be slightly managin the demands in a slightly appeasin way...here's hopin...but damn...fuckme! the stress is crazy as of late...i been battling these odd fluctuations of migraines that i've been tryin to manage & keep to myself..not easy with the stress, for each makes the other worse...
i've been ever so happy at home lately...pets are lovely...even if they aren't the animal kind
so i've been thinkin alot lately about change...and things truly have to...for me & lots of other people who deserve change in a good way...i i feel the need to acquire positive gainful change that will continue to expand upon the optimism i've known as of late...i know things i want...but i am scared of so much in certain aspects of change & sometimes i want too much...i do know, as do others, that i'm just wastin time now where i am....and i must make the decision to move on in some form or capacity...in some direction...and it need not necessarily be the promotion i deserve...cuz truth be told, on a regular basis i hate it there & want to look for something new...but then again new can be scary with change..i am too comfortable in something that's not gettin me ahead...it'd be diferent if i had more to show than i do for it all...but advancement is slightly necessary...whatever form it may take...i tire of all that surrounds me here in my hole i made for myself...i must do something soon...
tomorrow i get off work @5ish...which is awesome & i kinda wanna do something cool...but i'm still seekin it...hopefully i shall find something cuz for many years now i've done nada for the 4th & couldn't tell you when i last saw fireworks...oh wait, i saw 2 randomly while takin out the trash at work tonight..but i don't think that counts...
sunday is my birthday & i vow that i shall not be a brat...it is true in the past that i've been such & wanted things my way..which is easy when you have friends who basically make your birthday a week long celebration...but i truly want to just be & to just do...i will have no expectations & no need for definites...sometimes i'm bad in my desire for plans & concretes...and my repetition needs to end, for new horizons await & i should learn to enjoy new things...to grow & to change i say...
so i've been introspective...and i should sooo be doin productive stuffs...
this video is awesomeness...as is the song too....
and i sooo want this...
KickAss Shirt Guy's Small if'nanyone decides to be so obliged
and imust say that i have had my faith in the sg selection process renewed recently....thanks to the lovely Athena 
the last few days have been truly wonderful!...
things at work are slightly tolerable & i seem to be slightly managin the demands in a slightly appeasin way...here's hopin...but damn...fuckme! the stress is crazy as of late...i been battling these odd fluctuations of migraines that i've been tryin to manage & keep to myself..not easy with the stress, for each makes the other worse...
i've been ever so happy at home lately...pets are lovely...even if they aren't the animal kind
so i've been thinkin alot lately about change...and things truly have to...for me & lots of other people who deserve change in a good way...i i feel the need to acquire positive gainful change that will continue to expand upon the optimism i've known as of late...i know things i want...but i am scared of so much in certain aspects of change & sometimes i want too much...i do know, as do others, that i'm just wastin time now where i am....and i must make the decision to move on in some form or capacity...in some direction...and it need not necessarily be the promotion i deserve...cuz truth be told, on a regular basis i hate it there & want to look for something new...but then again new can be scary with change..i am too comfortable in something that's not gettin me ahead...it'd be diferent if i had more to show than i do for it all...but advancement is slightly necessary...whatever form it may take...i tire of all that surrounds me here in my hole i made for myself...i must do something soon...
tomorrow i get off work @5ish...which is awesome & i kinda wanna do something cool...but i'm still seekin it...hopefully i shall find something cuz for many years now i've done nada for the 4th & couldn't tell you when i last saw fireworks...oh wait, i saw 2 randomly while takin out the trash at work tonight..but i don't think that counts...
sunday is my birthday & i vow that i shall not be a brat...it is true in the past that i've been such & wanted things my way..which is easy when you have friends who basically make your birthday a week long celebration...but i truly want to just be & to just do...i will have no expectations & no need for definites...sometimes i'm bad in my desire for plans & concretes...and my repetition needs to end, for new horizons await & i should learn to enjoy new things...to grow & to change i say...
so i've been introspective...and i should sooo be doin productive stuffs...
this video is awesomeness...as is the song too....
and i sooo want this...
KickAss Shirt Guy's Small if'nanyone decides to be so obliged
and imust say that i have had my faith in the sg selection process renewed recently....thanks to the lovely Athena
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ya know, i think everybody hates change. as do i. people just get in the habit of doing what they're used to and then dont want something to mix that up, im kinda like that! i like having a set schedule for work, i know pretty much what ill be doing everyday, i kinda like it like that though!
and im bummed i wont be around for your birthday. you'll be hearing from me in some way shape or form on sunday so i can at least send you birthday wishes!