candykydfairy

dancin with betty in the wee hours of the morn, i be...i been up for awhile makin cookies for the sgesus picnic this morn...it looks like it will be a lovely day for such a thing & a sleepin puppy stil graces my "bed" i've this tendency when i start makin cookies, i don't wanna stop...it's like a strange snowball effect...i suppose maybe it's cuz i don't get as many chances to do such these days as i used to...i'm ever sooo happy that someone wonderful donated an ipod to my sanity cause & my ears are now graced with a lovely mix of tori & placebo as i waltz in the kitchen ...

i've been ever soooo stressed out lately about my stupid job that it's unreal...it's made my insomnia worse @ times & maybe even made me slightly sick to my stomach at the thoughts of the demands upon me...plus the fact that compassion & a social life are not things that my job believes i should have...one of my absolute best friends had sent me some terrible news the other day which greatly upset me...his mother passed away the other day...she was fabulous & slightly a mother to me too at times...those awkward years of slightly comin out in a nonverbal way were comforted by his mother's support of us & she was always such a wonderful person...she fought many battles in her lifetime-a terrible motorcycle accident that nearly claimed her & her husband which she made a miraculous recovery from only to go on to many numerous batles with numerous types of cancer which eventually she could not beat...i want to think that her struggles are over & she is happy now even without her family & friends who loved her so & will miss her even more....but it greatly depresses me that there was no way i could go home to be with my friend in such a tremendous time of need & to pay my utmost respects...

but movin on to more optimistic things...i'm excited about the picnic & playground today and shall return to the kitchen to start a second type of cookie ...i leave you with a few new self-portraits...