candykydfairy

random observations...sometimes introspection is evil...but yeah it nags me and won't give up til i give in... here's a few things that i've learned about myself and the walkin contradiction that i truly am...i am independent woman type yet i am vulnerable and need..and sometimes lose my strength...i am open-minded yet supress a fear of the unkown...i thirst for knowledge but don't want to own up to any type of stupidity or naivety...i sometimes know the things i must do but deny them anyways....i find my moments of clarity either too early or too late..or maybe when they shouldn't even be found since there's nothing clearer when they're over....i say inner 8 year old when sometimes i must wonder if tis inner at all...only in appearance maybe, i do question...i want to change things but fear the process of starting over...in the adulthood i attempt, i still cling to a figurative security blanket...i know of the evil time warp yet still fall vicitm to it's vortex...and i leave my thoughts in many places...