Happy blog! For my reader (I'm assuming singular here, don't want to look cocky), who wanted to know what brightens my days
First and most literally... the sun. I live in southern Colorado, which means that my winters and summers like to do extremes. Winters for me look like... well. I don't know. I'm in an awful depressed state of mopping around with pizza and blankets. It's not pretty. But summer! Well. It's like some weird transformation happens where I become a beautiful, beautiful butterfly and leave my cocoon (apartment). I go out with friends, I shop, I swim, I have picnics. Everything that I love to do, I can do in the summer. A vast amount of my emotional state depends on the weather.
Friendly strangers make me happy. Not friendly like fake friendly like "oh I'm your waitress and I have to smile even though you can just go ahead and shove your bacon cheeseburger up your skinny ass." Friendly as in someone who actually wants me to have a good day when they say it. They take a second and freaking CARE about the person in front of them. That type of consideration always just blows my mind and makes me so dang happy.
side note: writing this is way more difficult than I thought it would be. it's easy to vent and write, way harder to appreciate and write. I'm suddenly terrified thinking about how I'll ever write vows.
Another side note: I had to stop here and go to bed, because I was having a bad night and was all thats all that makes me happy because Im full of sad! But Im over that now and can continue writing!
Also I have more than one reader now, thats basically fame. Eff you world, Im fucking famous.
Kids! Kids make me smile. Sometimes they make me want to punt them across a room, true. But I love the love in kids, if that makes any sense. I dont have any (yet. It will happen. Future husband, were having kids. And theyll be rad as shit.) but Ive worked with kids for.. like.. ever. One of my favorite summers was when I did volunteer work all day long all week for a preschool. Its true that they can get annoying, but everyone is a lil annoying sometimes; kids just do the annoying thing cuter than the rest of us.
Alcohol. Because I'm a happy drunk And food. I really love food and beverages. I have a thing for tasty things. Also, I want to spell tasty "tastey."
Good books, music, and movies. I'm a fan of fiction, because I read books to escape, usually. Although one of my favorite books is about the Armenian genocide (for no apparent reason, either. It's called Forgotten Fire and I love it.) I love listening to music and usually like most of what I hear. I used to do the choir thing but I don't actually sing well; I'm remarkably untalented when it comes to music, even though my parents were/are musicians. Movies, kind of the same as music. I love absorbing other people's creations, I suppose. Listening to what they want to share, reading their ideas.... EATING THEIR FOOD.
Lots of little things make me happy. Seeing a butterfly, getting a happy text, a visit from a friend, a good tip from a table at work. I struggle a lot with feeling sad and alone and apathetic, but I do enjoy life. It can be hard for me some days, but that's life isn't it? I always try and remind myself that just the ability to feel sad is something to be ecstatic over. Hopefully I can hold on to that feeling for the rest of the day. Or the rest of my life.
First and most literally... the sun. I live in southern Colorado, which means that my winters and summers like to do extremes. Winters for me look like... well. I don't know. I'm in an awful depressed state of mopping around with pizza and blankets. It's not pretty. But summer! Well. It's like some weird transformation happens where I become a beautiful, beautiful butterfly and leave my cocoon (apartment). I go out with friends, I shop, I swim, I have picnics. Everything that I love to do, I can do in the summer. A vast amount of my emotional state depends on the weather.
Friendly strangers make me happy. Not friendly like fake friendly like "oh I'm your waitress and I have to smile even though you can just go ahead and shove your bacon cheeseburger up your skinny ass." Friendly as in someone who actually wants me to have a good day when they say it. They take a second and freaking CARE about the person in front of them. That type of consideration always just blows my mind and makes me so dang happy.
side note: writing this is way more difficult than I thought it would be. it's easy to vent and write, way harder to appreciate and write. I'm suddenly terrified thinking about how I'll ever write vows.
Another side note: I had to stop here and go to bed, because I was having a bad night and was all thats all that makes me happy because Im full of sad! But Im over that now and can continue writing!
Also I have more than one reader now, thats basically fame. Eff you world, Im fucking famous.
Kids! Kids make me smile. Sometimes they make me want to punt them across a room, true. But I love the love in kids, if that makes any sense. I dont have any (yet. It will happen. Future husband, were having kids. And theyll be rad as shit.) but Ive worked with kids for.. like.. ever. One of my favorite summers was when I did volunteer work all day long all week for a preschool. Its true that they can get annoying, but everyone is a lil annoying sometimes; kids just do the annoying thing cuter than the rest of us.
Alcohol. Because I'm a happy drunk
And food. I really love food and beverages. I have a thing for tasty things. Also, I want to spell tasty "tastey."
Good books, music, and movies. I'm a fan of fiction, because I read books to escape, usually. Although one of my favorite books is about the Armenian genocide (for no apparent reason, either. It's called Forgotten Fire and I love it.) I love listening to music and usually like most of what I hear. I used to do the choir thing but I don't actually sing well; I'm remarkably untalented when it comes to music, even though my parents were/are musicians. Movies, kind of the same as music. I love absorbing other people's creations, I suppose. Listening to what they want to share, reading their ideas.... EATING THEIR FOOD.
Lots of little things make me happy. Seeing a butterfly, getting a happy text, a visit from a friend, a good tip from a table at work. I struggle a lot with feeling sad and alone and apathetic, but I do enjoy life. It can be hard for me some days, but that's life isn't it? I always try and remind myself that just the ability to feel sad is something to be ecstatic over. Hopefully I can hold on to that feeling for the rest of the day. Or the rest of my life.
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Kids are creepy, Alcohol is fun on many occasions, Food is delicious. I can make you something if you ever come my way. As a way of being a friendly stranger. O.o
Smile and don't stop! It can change the world for you.