i'm in the worst mood ever. I'm fucked up. i'm distraught. i'm having trouble focusing.
my thoughts are scattered, and my brain feels fuzzy.
in other words, i'm stoned as fuck.
and therefore, I'm being extremely honest right now...
I'm at my wits end. i'm tired of getting my heart broken time and again. guys using me... my heart being smashed to pulp. i'm tired of FUCKING CARING for egomaniac, bullshitting, motherfucking players.
ALWAYS THE SAME.
ALWAYS ASSHOLES.
ALWAYS DICKWADS.
i know this doesn't sound like me. i'm not usually this mean or fucking candid like this on here... i usually like to talk about happy things and beauty and art and poetry and squids... but this occassion (sp? i always screw up that word dammit) seriously calls for it.
i'm tired of being screwed over. time and again.
i'm standing up for myself this time.
no more bullshit.
no more empty promises.
no more giving,
and not receiving.
i hate having the feelings that i do. i hate that i give a shit. i'm going to stay away from drama at all costs.
no more highschool bullshit.
::jealousy:: =
i'm not usually a jealous person. i'm hardly ever jealous. So when i am, i hate myself for it. i think that if the other person involved doesn't want me, doesn't try to be with me, doesn't try to get to know me, then fuck him/her. i'm not going to be jealous over someone who doesn't really want me anyways. he/she's not worth it.
anyways, i'm over it. i'm done. i'm through.
no more relationships. no more men... maybe women... but no more emotions getting invested. at least for a little while.
i'm closing myself down. no more fucked-up relationships. no more putting myself out there. i just don't care anymore.
over.
done.
my thoughts are scattered, and my brain feels fuzzy.
in other words, i'm stoned as fuck.
and therefore, I'm being extremely honest right now...
I'm at my wits end. i'm tired of getting my heart broken time and again. guys using me... my heart being smashed to pulp. i'm tired of FUCKING CARING for egomaniac, bullshitting, motherfucking players.
ALWAYS THE SAME.
ALWAYS ASSHOLES.
ALWAYS DICKWADS.
i know this doesn't sound like me. i'm not usually this mean or fucking candid like this on here... i usually like to talk about happy things and beauty and art and poetry and squids... but this occassion (sp? i always screw up that word dammit) seriously calls for it.
i'm tired of being screwed over. time and again.
i'm standing up for myself this time.
no more bullshit.
no more empty promises.
no more giving,
and not receiving.
i hate having the feelings that i do. i hate that i give a shit. i'm going to stay away from drama at all costs.
no more highschool bullshit.
::jealousy:: =
i'm not usually a jealous person. i'm hardly ever jealous. So when i am, i hate myself for it. i think that if the other person involved doesn't want me, doesn't try to be with me, doesn't try to get to know me, then fuck him/her. i'm not going to be jealous over someone who doesn't really want me anyways. he/she's not worth it.
anyways, i'm over it. i'm done. i'm through.
no more relationships. no more men... maybe women... but no more emotions getting invested. at least for a little while.
i'm closing myself down. no more fucked-up relationships. no more putting myself out there. i just don't care anymore.
over.
done.
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To hell with the boys. To fucking hell with them. I dont want a boy. I want a man. [or woman?]
What happened to the nice men of the 50s? Open a door for me, treat me with respect. Give me a flower, a peck on the cheek .. dont go for the boobs the first chance you get. No lies, no games, no twists and turns .. how old are you? Over14 -- no more of these games.
You and I, lets both. Be stronge and a big "fuck-you".
Think more ... they are lucky to even be near me. They are lucky to even look upon me.
I am worth everything.
Fuck the boys.
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